Not Creepy, Just.. Different

Joy

Love

Happiness

They're all having fun.

"Come play Volleyball with us!"

I cant,

I'm.. busy.

I'm crying.

Can't you see?

Yes! Yes! I want to play!

But I can't.

I can't take that risk.

" Why do you have to be so...creepy?"

It's not my choice.

Why can't you understand?

Why can't you?

Just understand.

I don't want to be like this.

I want to laugh.

I want to have fun.

I want to hang out.

I want to be happy.

I want to live!

But I'm trapped.

In this horrid cursed half life.

I'm alone.

I'm different.

And you don't know why.

You don't realize why.

I don't want to be known like this.

I don't want to seem cold.

Or unfeeling.

I am human too you know.

" People fear what they do not understand."

What do you know?

You were the only one...

And you betrayed me.

You played me like a toy.

Using me for what I'm worth.

Then once you got what you wanted...

You threw me away like a rag doll.

You were the only one who made me feel...

You were the only one there.

The only one I wanted.

And then you leave.

You leave me.

Your forced me.

Forced me to drag a knife along my skin.

You pushed me into this depression.

I don't want to be alone.

" ...Or that everyone liked me better than you?"

No. No. No. NO!

I worked so hard.

And you just come in and take it all away.

You people, you don't understand.

You never understand what you do not know.

You fear is what you do.

Fear of understanding the darker parts of life.

So many feelings, await the day,

The day they can be unleashed.

The day where I am set free.

Where I no longer have to hide.

Where I am no longer known as ... but,

That day that will never come.

Tears I shed.

No matter how many.

It doesn't change a thing.

Nothing ever does.

I watch you.

My friends...

You enjoy life.

I only wish I can too.