The Playgirl Is Resigning

CHAPTER 12: Switch

Mag iisang oras na kami rito sa cafe. And no one has ever talked again.

I'm frustrated earlier and now I'm pissed. I can't seem to send out of my mind what he just told me about his ideal girl. It's not that I care about it. I just feel insulted. It's just as if he said in front of my face that he would never like me. Oh right! He did told me that he don't like me. And he's making it worse for telling me indirectly that he will never ever like me through those shits. Though I was the one who asked him about it, still I'm pissed. The hell I care anyway!

We're both staring at our Mac book. The only difference is that, he's studying while I'm... not.

Though I still have a lot to do. Parang hindi ko pa yata gawin ang mga school works and activities ko ngayon. Badtrip ako.

Kanina pa ako pasulyap-sulyap sa harapan ko para matingnan siya. He's not wearing his eyeglasses right now. Maybe he's wearing a contacts? Probably not. I can see his natural hazel nut brown eyes from here.

Napataas naman ako ng isang kilay. They're all right, alright. I don't think I remember looking at a nerd this manly. He's not actually the typical type of a nerd. Because of his thick black glasses and the very thick book he'd read. But overall, he looks normal... Like now.

Amiri is very smart. He's not the typical guys I met all my life. And now that I think about it, we both are in different worlds. He somehow feels like he's steps higher, farther and away from me. He revolves around his own orbit and I'm on mine. We're both on the top but on different pedestrial.

I felt this sudden weird feeling in my chest. It's heavy and it's kinda sting.

Napainom ako sa Brewed coffee na pina order ko kay Amiri para mapabuti kahit papaano ang naramdaman. Napasobrahan yata ang kain ko ng matamis at sa kape. Nakadalawang order din kasi ako ng mocha flavored cake at dalawang tasa ng brewed coffee.

"What's wrong?" I lifted my face to see him. Nakakunot ang kanyang noo. He didn't look worried but he sounds concern.

Ibinalik ko ang tasa pagkatapos kong makainom. "Uh! Napasobra lang yata sa cake at kape?" Patanong kong bigkas kaya mas lalong kumunot ang kanyang noo.

"Are you hungry?" Napakurap-kurap ako.

Now that he said that parang magic na naramdaman ko bigla ang pagkalam ng aking sikmura.

Marahan akong tumango.

He suddenly looks frustrated as he looked away. He licked his lips as he looked at me again. "You didn't have breakfast or lunch?"

Ngumiti ako ng peke. "Wala kasi akong gana. Umalis na lahat ng Kuya ko sa bahay kanina for their businesses. Kaya nag toasted bread lang ako para maaga akong makaalis. They don't want me to see them leave kasi. Tapos kanina sa cafeteria, hindi ko naubos ang lasagna ko." And now I'm telling him my story of day that even my friends didn't know about. Uh!

Nakita ko ang pagkainis sa mukha niya."We're here for hours and you didn't tell me about it?" Napanguso naman ako. He's mad.

" I'm sorry, okay? I don't want to bother you with your studies just because I'm hungry. Nakakain din naman ako ng cake." Muntik ng umurong ang aking dila nang tinapunan niya ako ng masamang tingin.

He sighed. "Just because you're hungry? Really?" Napasinghap naman siya na parang hindi makapinawala sa sinabi ko.

Ano nanaman ba ang problema nito? Hindi ko na nga sinabi sa kanya dahil baka magalit siya dahil maistorbo siya sa pag-aaral niya. Tapos ngayon nagalit nanaman dahil hindi ko sinabi sa kanya. Ang gulo niya!

"I can just order another cake." I suggested. Pero tinapunan nanaman niya ako ng masamang tingin. At this time, parang kakainin na niya ako ng buhay.

Nagsimula na siyang magligpit ng mga gamit niya. Is he that mad on me that he's leaving me here? Muntik ko ng batukan ang sarili ko. Dapat pala hindi ko nalang inamin na nagugutom ako.