devil town ✿ spam iii

i'd literally rather just fail school thanks

i havent done something bad enough recently for my parent to get mad at me and after literally deleting everything off my phone (including the app store and facetime haha kms) i think theyre running out of ways to make me want to die so i think they're just grasping at straws for reasons to make my life suck rn but anyway

i have an 80 c in science rn and suddenly my parents think the world is on fire and im  menace to society that doesnt deserve love. like the a's i have in civics honours and english honours which bothhappen to be notoriously hard classes dont matter and the fact i have a b in all my other classes doesnt matter either apparently???? bc literally all my life amounts to now is making sure i raise my 4th quarter science grade by 7 points

and so my parents are trying to make me write and email to my teacher even though i've already told them 87502065602 times that i'll talk to her in person tomorrow and like this doesnt seem like a big deal but emailing teachers (especially teachers who've said multiple times in class that they hate getting emails about grades) stresses me the FUCK out like bringing myself to talk to a teacher about raising my 80 c in person already makes want to throw up but i'd literally rather just fail the class all together than have to email her about it

+++ if i dont raise this all important 4th quarter science grade before exams they're threatening not to send me to this summer camp that i've been going to for 7 years and in which is the only place i get to see the majority of my friends and again this doesnt seem like a big deal but ???????????? this camp is literally one of the like 4 things i rlly care about in life and anyway im done complaining now :)