OKAY? THIS STORY HAS BEEN FORGOTTEN AND ITS ALL MY FAULT. AND NOW I NEED TO END THIS SOON... THANKS FOR BEARING WITH ME EVEN THOUGH IM ALWAYS LATE. LOVE YOU GUYS.... I HOPE YOULL LOVE THIS CHAPTER LOL. EVEN THO ITS CRAPPY...
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JIMIN'S POV
"Mr. Son.... Why? H-How? Is this really happening? Why didn't she tell me about it... I ought to know. Why now? This is just t-too m-much... this is... she should have told me... why??? This is so unfair... " I was stammering and cried falling down to my knees. Mr. Son is just looking down on me wearily with tears in his eyes. Soon he joined me placing his hands on my shoulders gripping it tightly. It's as if he's trying to ease the pain that I'm feeling right now but it never happened...
"I should have convinced her more before, Jimin. It is my fault. She never wanted to go through the treatment. We would always fight before, but she is so stubborn, I swear I did my best, Jimin. If I could just take all the pain and fear she has... I would. I even asked her if you are aware but she refuses to talk about it. I'm sorry... She's happy with you. I thought everything is getting better and this happened..." Mr. Son stared at me apologetically.
"I'm sorry too, Mr. Son... I shouldn't have said that, this is just too sudden for me..."
Sadness and frustration is eminent on his face. I felt too bad to speak to him like that. He must be suffering more than me. He's been with her all his life and they have made a lot of good and happy memories together. While I am just her boyfriend, the boy who once was broke her heart many times. I always thought that I don't deserve her and yet she was always there for me and she never failed to love and understand me all this time.
And she's slipping away...
I closed my eyes in silence my cheeks are still damped with tears and I sighed heavily. I felt that my hands were engulfed with warmness by her father, alleviating the coldness in my heart. I still want to assure myself that this is just a nightmare, that I will wake up later and meet the healthy and bubbly Nana. That this is just a prank, they're making fun of us because we are the cheesiest and noisiest couple ever. When in fact they were just jealous of us...
But then I opened my eyes and realized that this is far from surreal.
The face of the man in front of me is making it more evident, his eyes are just like hers.
The reality is dawning on me again as I heard his muffled cries.
"Jaebal... Please save her, Jimin. Convince my daughter. You're the only one who can do that now. She may listen to you... Please, please.. I beg you." He breathed out, he's asking me like I'm his only and last resort and just made my heart ache more, but I need to be strong for her.
A noticeable determination is coming through, drying my eyes once more I glanced over at the old man in front of me. "Ne... I will, I-I will make her stay... I will do my best to prolong her life even for a year or more... I promise..."
After our heartfelt conversation and agreement, we have waited for more hours before Nana can be transferred to her own room. Mr. Son asked for a private time with her daughter so we let him stay for an hour. Taehyung was still in the waiting area and has become silent ever since we have arrived at the hospital. He never asked me anything or even spoken to me. I wonder what's going on to his head. Me, on the other hand, is still waiting for my turn. I haven't seen her yet and I'm afraid I might break down in front of her.
She's too young to die, she's too precious to suffer like this. All of our dreams have become shattered in an instant. All the plans that we had were all drifting away. The uncertainty of the situation drowning me into the pool despair but I didn't want to give up so easily.
I will make her stay...
My thoughts were disturbed by the sound of a door opening revealing Mr. Son and Mirae. The former just looked at me eagerly and stopped right in front patting my shoulders with a heavy sigh.
"Please, Jimin..." He went away with his eyes staring at me desperately.
"Jimin, you can go visit her now... she was looking for you ever since she woke up." Mirae gestured her hands to the room and I moved my feet move on its own anticipating to see her lovely face again leaving Mirae and Tae at the waiting area.
As I entered her room, Nana is lying down facing the wall, still incognizant of my presence.
I slowly sit on the chair and reach out for her arms and caressed it gently. After a few seconds, she touched my hand and squeezed it carefully still facing the wall.
I don't know what to say. I can't find the right words to make her believe that it's going to be alright. Because this is not okay, she is not okay...
All I could do right now is to make her feel that I will never leave her, that I still love her and I will help her in the best way I can.
"I'm sorry-" She breathed trying to swallow her sobs.
"I told you not to fall in love with me...you even promised me, Jimin."
"What? I- I can't remember... Anything, Baby. Please don't scare me... I'm.scared enough to lose you... Please..." my voice cracked as I tried to suppress my muffled cries. I moved closer and she faced me this time. I can clearly see her pretty but pale face. Her eyes are full of sadness and desperation. I cupped her cheeks and wiped the tears that are flowing down.
"I'm sorry... Jimin. I was selfish... But I was trying to stay away and then you came again. I just can't say no to you... I'm so in love with you... And now I regret it so much. I shouldn't have dragged you to this misery. You deserve to be happy, Jimin... And not by some sick and hopeless girl like me. I'm sorry but I guess we need to end this now... Mianhae."
Her words keep on rushing through my head. I wasn't able to process some of it because my mind is clouded by my worries, but it's clear that she wants to end it up with me.
"What? No.... You can't do that, Nana. You'll be cured. You can undergo any possible process, I promise I'll always be here. huh? We can make this happen, Nana, Just please..." I let out my choked sobs as I call out her name, my hands are desperately clutching into the sides of her face.
"You don't know what you're talking about, Jimin. Stop being delusional! You're an Idol and I'm dying! THIS IS NOT A FAIRYTALE!"
"You will live okay?! I'll never gonna let go of you! Never! I know it's never gonna be easy for you! You'll suffer and endure a lot of pain, but that's why I'm here!" I exclaimed and burst out into tears as I let go of her. She was shocked because of my sudden outburst, but I guess I can't take it anymore.
"That's impossible... you'll eventually get tired of me and leave!" She kept on shaking her head heedlessly.
"Are you listening to yourself? Don't you think this is fair? huh?! You've kept this for a very long time, but It's fine because I understand! And here you are trying to get rid of me and giving up already! Do you ever think of your Dad? Do you ever think of your best friends? Do you ever think of me?!"
My hands were swaying desperately and I ran my fingers through my hair. She jerked up and her eyes locked with mine. It's as if she regrets everything she said, but then fear came again.
"I'm scared.... Jimin... I'm scared of not being with you..." She cried softly looking down on her lap.
"Then why are you doing this...?"
"Because this isn't right..."
"Just stop, NANA!"
"So let's just end this before it's too late..."
"I said STOP! I WILL NEVER EVER GIVE UP ON YOU, NANA! DO YOU HEAR ME? NEVER!" I left her behind as soon as I finished my last words for her. Honestly, I never regret shouting at her if it will make her wake up from her stupidity, then it's fine.
Sorry, Nana. I'm doing this because I love you...
Upon exiting her room I saw Tae standing in the door way with wide eyes. My chest is heaving, my eyes are red and swollen but I could care less. I heard him speak to Mirae and she obliged immediately, entering Nana's room.
"J-Jiminah?" He just called my name and I sobbed like a child on his shoulders.
All of the fears, frustration, sadness, desperation... I felt like my world is crashing down.
Taehyung sighed and more fat tears slipping down my cheeks. He just kept silent and listened to my cries.
"S-he's-" my voice cracked "breaking up with me.... Taehyungah."
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