"Fuck" I moaned as I got up
It was 6 am in the morning and my head hurt like shit. Jesse was still sleeping on the sofa
"What the fuck happened here?" I asked myself not remembering a thing from last night.
But then my mind started to clear up and I could see the picture of Peach leaving me
I fucked up so bad, so so bad.
I looked at Jesse for a second and then I thought how much I love them both but I have a choice to make it's Jesse or Peach I can't afford to make mistakes anymore.
Jesse was still sleeping on the couch and I didn't want to wake him so instead I thought I should text Peach. You know. To make sure she's okay, even if I know she isn't. At least maybe she calmed down
Peach's POV
"Hi Peach, are you fine now?" was the text that lit up my screen.
Pathetic. I thought
I just opened the message and left Zach on seen, how the fuck does he thinks I would be okay after what he did to me?
I gave him directions to my heart and his ass busted left.
Stop feeling so damn sorry for yourself. It's not a big deal, people experience horrible things everyday, much worse than what's happening to you right now. Get over it!
I say to myself multiple times.
I don't feel like it's the end of the world but I don't feel well either, I guess I'm just stuck somewhere in between. A place where my heart is shuttered in pieces but ready to move on. I can't let it go because I still have feelings so those are the ones that should help me move on. It should be easy since I won't see him anymore, but being all alone in my apartment makes me go crazy. My thoughts are making me lose my mind right now, everything is just a fucking mess.
Just one hit of him and I knew I'll never be the same. He got that power over me and I let him. I'm so weak, God.
Zach's POV
"Good morning babe" I hear Jesse's soft voice from behind and then feel his arms wrapping around me
" Sweet Jesus" I whisper.
"I'm sorry I don't want you to get this the wrong way I already told you last nigh-"
"You told me what Jesse huh? That you still have feelings for me but we can't be together? I fucking knew that already but if this is not going to happen ever again act like it. You're literally behaving like we are in an actual relationship, leading me on is not okay and we will end up being hurt again. both of us" I say with a shaky voice and tears in my eyes
"I'm sorry Zach don't take it personal but make your fucking mind up I'm out of here " Jesse says in anger
I should say something because a part of me wants him to stay and comfort me but I just watch him leave like I did with Peach.
He left and my heart broke once again.
And it's all my fault
I don't have control of it anymore.
