Torn (COMPLETED)

Chapter 29

Maine

Ang sakit ng katawan ko.

That was the first thing that came up my mind when I woke up before Alden that afternoon. We were lying on the sofa, spooning. Napalinga ako para tumingin sa wall clock, 2PM na pala! At 'di ko rin napigilang magulat sa mga malalaking bintana na nakapalibot sa buong sala. Yes, this is our house but we're both naked for goodness' sake! I tried to sit but he was hugging me from behind. I just turned my head to stare at his beautiful face. Jusmiyo! Akala mo kung sinong mabait kapag tulog, pero kanina parang... I smiled. Maski natutulog siya, 'di ko mapigilang mapabuntong-hininga sa amo ng mukha n'ya, sa haba ng eyelashes and those lips, those lips made me shiver awhile ago. Oh goodness...

I was about to touch his lips when he caught my hand.

"Enjoying the view, miss? May girlfriend na 'ko."

Sa gulat ko muntik pa akong mahulog sa sahig. Good thing he caught me. Then he laughed. Makulit talaga.

When he let me stand up, muntik pa akong matumba. Inalalayan n'ya ako kaagad. Masakit naman kasi ang mga binti ko. He hugged me from the back para pigilan akong maglakad.

"Still sore, babe? Gusto ko pa," he hoarsely whispered to my ear. Gumapang pa mula sa tenga ko hanggang sa talampakan ang kiliti ko. Talaga naman itong lalaking 'to! Kahit na matagal na naming ginagawa ito, I cannot help but wince and shy away with his words. That's how he was whenever were together. Lumalabas ang pagiging pilyo kapag kaming dalawa lang.

And yes... we did it again.

Replay. Tsk.

Anong oras na nga ba ulit? I reached for my cellphone, which was lying on the table just beside my bed. Alas cuatro pa lang pala. Hindi gaanong halatang maliwanag pa sa labas dito sa kwarto ko kasi makapal din ang kurtina parang sa condo lang.

Again, we were snuggling. Paano ba ako makakakilos nito. Ang hilig n'ya mang-akap ngayon. Hindi ako halos makakilos, nakadantay ang legs n'ya pati sa legs ko, as if ayaw akong makawala. Siguro sa tagal ng 'di kami nagkita o 'di namin nagawa 'yung mga ganitong bagay, kaya ganyan sa ka-clingy ngayon. He was clingy before, but not like this. Para s'yang bata ngayon na ayaw kumawala sa paborito n'yang teddy bear.

I caressed his face. Ang gwapo lang talaga n'ya. Alam ko na tulog na tulog pa s'ya kasi kabisado ko ang paghinga n'ya kapag natutulog.

I was staring at him for quite sometime already when it dawned on me... We had sex!

Obviously. I rolled my eyes. Para naman akong tanga dito na nagtataka pa. Yes. As I've said earlier, this was new to us. He was my first and we've been having safe sex since more than a year ago.

Pero bakit parang may biglang may kumabog sa dibdib ko ngayon? Something was off. What was it, really?

We've been having safe sex since more than a year ago...

Safe sex...

Oh shit! I wasn't on my pill anymore! Huminto nga pala akong mag-take ng pills when I broke up with him! That was when? Half a year ago! That was six months ago?! At nakalimutan kong sabihin sa kanya. Nakalimutan ko! Period!

I was panicking; a storm was already raging inside of me! Well, don't get me wrong. I am very happy right now. Now that we are finally okay just like before, or maybe even better. We are being intimate again just like before.

But we did not exactly just like before!

Shit! Shit! How can that big of a detail slipped off my mind?