IRL | JINKOOK ✅

chapter forty four

Hoseok POV ~

Here I am, sitting in the school bathroom for at least an hour now, like one of those depressed bitches who cry about their lives. I'm not trying to be emotional because that's not me, but I can feel it inside me. I want to cry yet I haven't. But as soon as I feel my eyes water, it all comes streaming down and my thoughts zoom around through my brain.

"I'm not bisexual. Am I?"

"What have I done to deserve this? What have they done to deserve that?"

"How will my boyfriend react to this all? I have to tell him. Do I?"

"Will everything be alright?"

Haha. God knows and loves to screw shit up for me I guess. My life seems perfect but it's not, but I don't sulk around because of that. I am rich and I have everything people could ever want. But it's not about the belongings, is what I know. It's about my life itself, and how much it utterly sucks. It sucks dicks, to be exact.

I pull out my phone and text my secret boyfriend, who's contact name is literally just his name. No emojis or hearts or nicknames, just his straight up name. If people got in my phone or friends saw I was texting someone with the contact name of "boyfriend", I don't know what they'd do. Ditch me and hate on me, or judge me, or laugh and take my phone to look. I dunno. Point is, his contact name is nothing special and that's that.

me: hey, i have to tell you.....a lot. pls call me.

I sat there tapping my fingers against my phone case while I waited for a response. He was probably in class working, although he is usually sneaking his phone under the desk. I loved how he was a rebel and also a player. Not only that, but he was crushing on many other guys which I thought was cute. I don't know, just the fact that he's dating another person while we are dating and likes other guys....turns me on. Not necessarily sexually, but just....I like it.

He can also act real well. He can easily act like he's deeply in love with someone but loves me at the same time. Also acts like he hates me but then we get together afterschool and....he doesn't hate me, I'll tell you that much...hehe. We are together a lot, surprisingly, but nobody knows. I like girls too, so I guess that does make me bisexual. But I don't know if I should be straight to keep my reputation standing strong. Hell would break lose if I came out as bisexual or whatever.

Suddenly, my phone beeped as I was wiping my semi-dry tears away from my cheeks. I looked at my lock screen and saw his contact name; I then unlocked my phone. I read his text, and he told me he would head to the bathroom to call me. Wow, I just realized how stupid I am for thinking he can just give me a call during class.

It took about thirty seconds for it to sink in and I realized that if he's in world language class right now, he'd be coming into this bathroom, the closest. I put my phone in my pocket and quickly wiping my tears, knowing that I'd now have to tell him face to face.

The bathroom door opened and I sighed, waiting for his familiar deep voice to hit my ears. But it didn't, and it was a familiar voice that was very fucking irritating. Jeon Jungkook's raspy ass annoying voice. Why is that dumbass in here?

"Bro, dude, chill....you look surprised to see me here, which is weird because I'm coming here to take a freaking piss. Why do you look like you've been crying, huh? Are you getting a feel of Seokjin's life yet?" Jungkook taunted as he walked over to the urinals and openly pulled down his pants to piss.

I practically growled and my eyebrows furrowed at him. "The fuck? My life isn't like Seokjin's, get a fucking grip around that already. You have some fucking gut to spread shitty rumors about me." I said.

"Shitty rumors? They're not shitty, they're fucking real. That doesn't make it a rumor actually, it makes it a fact bro." He said as he pulled his pants up and buckled his belt.

"God dammit! Leave me the fuck alone! Who cares if I'm thinking about my fricken sexuality! Clearly you care, and I can't get why!" I said trying to keep my voice down since the bathroom echoes.

"Because you've given me and Seokjin and Namjoon and Yoongi shit for being gay!" The bathroom door suddenly opens as Jungkook says that.

"who said my name? babe?"