I am so in love with Will that it doesn't even make sense...I just can't help but feel like he is better off without me.. I am the son of Hades, a spawn of the god of death and destruction himself. Which some associate with me being "the spawn of Satan" ...nevertheless, I have always been seen as a freak. No matter what I did, there was always someone who made it their life mission to constantly torment me. The only person that I could ever trust was...my sister, Bianca...she protected me from anything and everything..she loved me for who I was. With her by my side, I didn't feel as alone as I had before, I no longer believed that it was just me against the world, because I knew my sister had my back. She was the only one that I could trust, the only person who cared about me, who would stand by my side no matter what. She was the only family that I ever needed, with her by my side, I knew that I was never alone and that everything was going to be okay. We may have been orphans, but we were never truly alone because we had each other. Bianca Di Angelo, the daughter of Hades, ironically became my guardian angel...that is until she literally became an angel...and left me alone on this world. Ever since the moment that I lost her forever, it has dawned on me what I truly am...a curse..I was so naive, so stupid to think that everything was going to be alright. I've been labeled a freak ever since, as I was never quite the same.. I tried my hardest to disappear and trust no one, because maybe if I lived in the shadows, then I wouldn't hurt anyone else. Then came hazel...the daughter of Pluto, thus making her and I siblings. I couldn't help but see Bianca in her, in the fire in her eyes and the way that she carried herself. I couldn't help but see her as Bianca and in a way, I made her my sister, as I did with Bianca. Whenever I realized how I was repeating my own naive mistakes, I shut down.. but then, whenever the fates determined that I would be one of the few demigods to save the world, I was forced out of my isolation. That was when I was forced to rejoin the ones who failed at protecting my sister, I HATED Percy for what happened to my sister... but I couldn't help but fall in love with his ocean blue eyes and his smirk. I was falling for the boy that I should be hating; the one responsible for me losing the only good thing in my life. I hid my feelings of both love and hate towards the son of Poseidon. That is until Cupid violated my privacy and tore out the secret that I had fought so hard to keep.
I am just so done with ruining things for both myself and others. For putting others in danger and allowing myself to just keep reliving the past. I don't want to hurt Will, as he is the only person, other than Bianca that I have truly loved. I love Will Solace, my sunshine, my world, but I can't let my curse hurt him too.
It seems as if I curse and end up hurting everyone I love and care about...I can't do that to Will..
