As long as we are together

He's gone...

(You don't have to listen to the song but I recommend listening to it anyways....)
Sam's POV
I woke up to Gabriel's alarm
In Gabriel's bed
I honestly couldn't remember when I fell asleep
But my first thought was
Where's Gabriel
My second thought was
He's gone
And it felt like a knife through my heart...
I started to cry again before I heard a knock on the door
"Sam is that you?" It was obviously chuck
"Uh-yea..."
"Is Gabriel in there...?"
"No...he left last night..."
Chuck opened the door and gave me a questioning look before he must've realized what had happened
"I'm sorry Sam...did he tell you why?"
"Mhm..."
"I figured...you still need to go to school though ok? Gabriel would want you to mov-" I cut him off
"He's Not DEAD!!! DONT TALK ABOUT HIM LIKE HE'S DEAD!!!" I yelled before crying again
Chuck just walked out leaving me alone in Gabriel's room once again...
I decided to just lay there for awhile taking in Gabriel's scent...God I missed him...how was I supposed to go through a day without him, let alone however long it's going to take...he was everything I had...I loved him so much...

I walked into my first period class
"Hey Samshine" Charlie said happily when she saw me, I on the other hand was trying not to cry because that was the last annoying name Gabriel called me before leaving...
"Hey, Charlie..."I said sadly...
"Are you ok? Where's Gabriel?"
That was all it took for me to lose it
I started to cry...
I just stood up walking into the (boys) bathroom
That's when I just let the tears run down my face when Charlie barged in
"Charlie what are you doing in here?"
"What? It's not like I'm going to look at the boys anyways! Now c'mon the nurse owes me a favor so let's go there k?"
"Ok" I responded wiping away the tears

We walked into the nurse's office
I just walked to one of the little beds in there and sat down fighting back the tears...
Why?
Gabriel didn't deserve what happened to his mother!
Charlie came and sat down next to me
"Do you want me to call dean?"
"M-mhm..."
"Ok...ms.barnes?"
"Yes dear?"
"Tell my mother I'm going home with Sam and I'll be home later ok?"
"Ok dear...is he alright?"
"I honestly don't know what's wrong but he's obviously not okay..."
I cleared my throat "g-guys I'm r-ri-right here"
"Sorry Sam!"

About 20 minutes later Dean and Cas showed up picking up Charlie and I and bringing us back to their apartment

We sat down In their living room
Dean and Cas sat on the Love seat
Charlie on the floor
And I sat on the recliner though I wasn't using it as a recliner just a normal seat...continuing to cry
"Sam what's wrong?" Cas asked me
"Gabriel left...something about the person who...uh-m-murdered your mother...h-he escaped..."I said it knowing Cas probably didn't know what had happened

Cas' POV
All the color must've drained from my face....because ever since my mothers death I wanted that man to waste away in jail...not ruin Gabriel's chance at happiness...honestly though I still don't know why he killed our mother

Sam's POV
That's when I remembered I was still in my clothes from yesterday
That's when I felt the small box in my pocket....
I was going to propose last night, even though we couldn't get married until we were older I was going to do it....
I broke down into tears again...
"Woah! Sammy calm down!" Dean said "it's going to be ok..."
"I'm surprised Gabriel said bye in person..." Cas said
"H-he wasn't going to...he was going to put a note...somewhere, I don't know where though....but
I-I came o-over there to pr-" that was all I could say before crying again
The pain of him leaving hit me again like a knife through the heart....
I wanted him in my arms....not walking around the country avoiding me...and I would never know if was ok or not...well...unless he died...
I couldn't afford to think like that rights now but I couldn't stop it...he was gone.....

Charlie's POV
Wow...Sam cared more than I thought...I mean I knew he cared but...I guess it turns out he cares for Gabriel as much as Gabriel cares for him...maybe more...
And then I saw the box in Sam's pocket...that's why he went to Gabriel's house...he was going to propose...
Now...I feel 10times worse for Sam...he had gotten enough courage to propose and Gabriel left him alone...now I'm not saying Gabriel didn't have a good reason but...poor Sam...

Dean's POV
I want to do something but I can't.... there's nothing I can do other than be a shoulder to cry on...and I hate being a shoulder to cry on but...it's my little brother so I could survive....
"Sammy...pr? What ar-" I realized what he was going to say....his plan last night was to propose....