My Life

2016 the end

A/N:

This is just a short chapter and this is my first book so i hope you liked it

~My POV~

I was at school very nervous due to the fact that my sister mileka was having yet another surgery on her lungs she relapsed on my birthday this year.I was only at school and not with her because i wasn't at school the last friday but I did do 4 performances in a row 2 day shows and 2 night shows i was in the coir for our production at school.

--Time skip to sports break--

We have 3 breaks at school morning tea,Lunch and sports break I was hanging out with Pluto, Ciel, Alois,Madame Red and sebastian yes we have nicknames from Black Butler Mine is Lizzy because i'm really hyper and i can get incredibly clingy oh i forgot i also can go from 0-100 very quick any way

I was stressed due that i wasn't with Mileka it would only take one thing to trigger tears or anger Jade/Pluto my best friend of 2yrs almost 3 accidently bumped into me because she and Aloise was chasing into each other creating a chain reaction i bumped into Madame red she retaliated and slapped me incredibly hard and here come the waterworks.

tears start pouring from my eyes like waterfalls my cousin Faye instantly came up to me and hugged me, Ash my Boyfriend wanted a hug but i rejected him (A/N lolz)My friend Carter (Kinda) came up to me her sister taylor has a brain tumor that they can't remove poor Taylor she hugged me and asked what's wrong ash still trying to get a hug and i keep rejecting him.

"My sister has a surgery today on her lungs but it's on the phrenic nerve which will paralyze that halve of the diaphragm and will only be able to use 40% of that lung* I manage to choke out between sobs 

---the Next day end of day---Warning Swearing--

"WHAT THE FUCK ARE DOING HERE* Madame red shouted at me

"STOP BEING A SMARTASS"I shout back at her she tried to slap me but my other friend Kayleigh stopped her she then walked off to catch up with Ciel

"BYE CIEL" I shout to her yes Ceil in our group is a girl

"BYE LIZZY" She shouts back to me pretending to be embarrassed Faye finally comes out of tech and we go home

--This happened for a few days up till today 15/9/17--

I got a pencil and started to cut my skin it wasn't working well go i went deeper with the pencil and almost succeeded when Jid (Jade/Pluto) stopped me i pretended everything was fine until me and Jade got called into Mrs ____ office she just asked why me and jade were trying to kill ourselves jade didn't tell the real reason for her she just agreed with me(I'm not going to tell the reasons for privacy reasons) we ended up having to talk to Madame Red about it she said sorry and so did i for calling her a bitch and what not .

This has a happy ending (kinda) we became sorta friends we had a good rest of the day and that's it for the story ik not interesting but all of this is all true BTW the pencil was sharp.

My reasons for wanting to commit suicide:

1. Bullying.

2.My sister.

3. Ik i'm not pretty or talented.