Parties with Cake

We Could Dream

I could pretend that when you force your way onto me,
it is love.
And we can laugh, dreaming of arguments that didn't result in violence.
We could dream we were healthy,
and I wasn't pretending to love you,
because I was scared of being alone.
We can dream that we were happy.
I can close my eyes and hope you never lied to me,
and that you were sorry.
I dream of you,
and it's scary.
I don't have to dream to find you,
and you aren't sorry.