Present time
Flashback
"So he actually came here and he was like 'Oh Nicole, I'm sorry this is happening to you, at least you look pretty in those sweatpants'" Nicole said in her mock man voice making me laugh
While she was laughing she started coughing, it was very subtle at first until it got really bad and looked painful for her. Right when I pushed the call button was when the blood started coming out of her mouth
The doctors and nurses all ran in wheeling her out and bringing her to a different room where they would operate on her and fail at trying to find the problem
End of flashback
"That was the last time I saw her" I said to my therapist, doctor Ramsey
He nodded "You have had quite the past my dear" He said and I nodded "Have you happened to write in that journal at all?" He asks as I pulled it out of my bag
I handed it to him and he opened it "Would you mind if I read it out loud and I will ask questions on it?"
"Go ahead" I said leaning back in the chair starting to bite on my thumb nail, a new habit I picked up after the crash
"Don't wait until it's too late to tell someone how much you love, how much you care. Because when they're gone, no matter how loud you shout and cry, they won't hear you anymore" He read out loud "Tell me a little more about this please, Cecelia"
I sighed "Well isn't it obvious? I miss her and I miss Aiden I can cry all I want but it's not like they're going to magically appear and make me feel better"
"You miss him even after what he did to you?" He asked closing my journal and putting it on his lap
"I did love him. He was my first love and at the rate I'm going, he is probably my last" I sighed looking out the window at the little people walking around. Doctor Ramsey's room was on the top floor, I requested a view to look at everyone
"Only if you tell yourself that but you can get through it, you're stronger than you know"
I sat back further in my chair "I'm only 25, why is this happening to me?"
"Everyone has a bad something that's happened to them, you may have gotten a somewhat worse one, but everyone has something that they have to get through. Some people let the sadness take over but the rest become stronger and get through it. I'm not telling you that you have to do anything, I'm only telling you that I am here to help you through this and that once you get past the bad part, which is now, you'll feel so much better"
I nodded still biting my nail and I was looking everywhere else but his eyes "Thanks I guess"
He was about to say something else when the timer went off "Well that's all for today, see you next week Cecelia, rest up"
