Truth of the Silvers (Vampire Knight)

Letting Go

Walking away, I tried focusing my mind on Zero. Just for once, ever since I was revealed for what I actually was, I wanted to focus on one thing solely.

"Zero?" I called out. There wasn't an answer, "I know you're out here,"

He reappeared and I crossed my arms, "What's wrong?"

"Why should I tell you?" He snapped sharply.

I was taken back by how cold he was.

"Well, if I had known you'd react with such a sour attitude, I wouldn't have needed to be concerned,"

He scoffed, "What makes you think I need your pity?" 

I scoffed, looking away, "You know what? Nevermind, sulk out here on your own. Go on, because everything that we've been through together has obviously not made you trust me enough,"

"Really?" He said, "You have no room to say that,"

I could see that he was frustrated and I wasn't making it any better but I didn't know what I was doing. Even if I wanted to, I wouldn't be able to blame my anger on the stress. It just wasn't an excuse.

No one should ever use stress as an excuse. If everyone did, the world would be madness.

"Do you think I wanted to deceive you? Yuki is the same. Do you think we could have helped it? I'm doing what I can with it,"

No," He said, "Just go away,"

"You still have feelings for Yuki," I said, hurt went through my chest, "I see it,"

He glared at me, "Rose," he growled.

"No," I said, "I will not stand it if you mix your anger into our friendship when it's you who needs to resolve something that doesn't have anything to do with me,"

I saw the malice in his eyes. That told me he was furious that I would venture on subjects I shouldn't even touch on. He was angry that I acted mighty enough to suddenly be able to tell him what to do, "I'm still-"

There was silence where I cut off. We both knew what I was gong to say. I'm still the same. And we both knew that wasn't the case. I was different from before. I was weaker now. I was scared. The both of us knew it well in the silence.

I was less confident.

I was scared that another secret would be revealed. Something else would rip me away from my life again, making every claim of being human false.

I was scared that words that I speak won't be worth anything one day my entire life, past, present and future would literally be a lie.

And he knew that.

"Can I be honest?" I said, "I think it's time to let go,"

"What do you mean?" He asked, playing dumb.

"Everything is muddled, messy, but at the same time, everything about our relationship is pure. It's simple. A messy simple, but never the less, it is simple. And it is one of the few miraculous relationships I'll never forget," I looked at him in the eyes, "But I think the both of us know what I mean by it's time to let go,"

We stayed in silence.

"I liked you Zero. I really did," I said, "And you have to admit it, we enjoyed our times together. But I think....before we can hurt each other, I think it's best we stop what we're doing now,"

I felt my heart beat steadily but it felt like a rope was pulling at it, ripping my heart to shreds.

"I've let go a long time ago," he stated flatly.

I closed my eyes, biting my lips, "You have to know, Zero, I'm a vampire. But.......I'm Rose,"

"No, Rose died," Zero said, "Two years ago,"

I my back to him and forced a laugh, "Well, then, this was embarrassing for me wasn't it?"

Feeling a sense of relief, I smiled, enjoying the genuine relationship I had permanently saved with Zero. If I live for all eternity, At least I know, we didn't ruin what we had.

And I had to remember, I didn't do this just for me. Yuki also loved Zero.

Turning my head to look at Zero, I smiled, "Goodbye, Zero,"

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Yeah......she's giving Zero up. Sad huh? Sorry if you were really looking forward to a ZeroxRose thing.....I was really contemplating this....but then....yeah.

Sorry for all ZeroxRose fans....comment and send me your grieves. This one was a fairly short chapter.....