Forgotten

Chapter 37

 The rain continued to thrash about and I finally lifted my head and looked around. It was so surreal, like everything was happening in slow motion. 

  Someone was calling my name, trying to get me up. I didn't want to leave Sorin. I screamed for them to leave me with him. I watched as Lera examined him. They pulled me back and I pushed away and ran to his side yanking the sword from his still and bloody chest. 

  Lightning and thunder crashed all around me. Four Guardians picked him up to take him away. I pushed them aside. "He is my mate, don't touch him!" I screamed at them with all the fury I had in me.

  "He is gone Nicole. Let them take him away." Ronin was trying to hold me back. I fought him, scrambling to get back to Sorin's side. I was sopping wet, the rain was pouring so hard it stung my face.

  I wouldn't let them take him from me.

  I couldn't leave him.

  He wouldn't want me to leave him.

  I was going to kill the next person who dared to touch him. I didn't know what to do, but I knew I had to stay with him. They would have to kill me to get to him. He was mine and I would fight every last Guardian if I had to.

  I didn't know what to do without him. I couldn't stand the thought of losing him. I would rather stab myself than live without him forever.

  I was frozen, thinking of Errington's words.

  Could I help Sorin now? What do I have that he seeks? Can I trade my life for his?

  Ronin looked at me like I had lost my mind. He could feel my confusion, wanting to die, but desperately wanting Sorin to live. He approached me slowly "Give me the sword Nicole." He reached his hand out to me, and took it from my hands. He threw the sword down and grabbed me. 

  "Wait!" I begged Ronin to let me go. "I will not lose what cannot be lost! Let me go, please, I can help him!" I begged, staring into his eyes, knowing he could feel what I was feeling, hoping he would understand. He stared back at me for what felt like forever.

  "Release her." Rage stood beside us with his hand on Ronin's shoulder. "She's the only one who can save him."

  "But, he is dead." Ronin's voice cracked as he spoke the words. I could see in his eyes how torn up he was.

  "Even death cannot keep him from her. They belong together," Rage replied. Though his voice lacked emotion, I could sense his hope as well as the fear that maybe I couldn't save his only brother.

  "Go," Ronin said as he released me.

  The second he let go I took the sword and scrambled to Sorin's side. I held up his head and sliced my neck. I rubbed my fingers in the blood and wiped it on his tongue. I leaned over him letting the blood drip from my neck onto his mouth. I did not care what the consequences of my actions were. I was willing to save him at all costs.

  "Nicole, what are you doing?" Ronin was horrified "You are going to bleed to death."

  I felt him reach for my neck and I pushed him back and leaned in, opening Sorin's mouth, praying the blood would pour down his throat.

  "Don't leave me. Please don't leave me. Not when I just got you back." I cried spilling tears all over his face. I held him in my arms and rocked back and forth praying my blood was enough.

  I felt a hand on my back, I turned to lash out at whoever it was, but it was his hand, Sorin's hand. He leaned closer to me and pushed his mouth against my neck. I held his head tight to me while he drank my blood.