dedicated to yazzy. your writing, yas. it amazes me to no ends. you're a talented writer, and a very sweet person. thanks for publishing and sharing your stories with the world.
unedited and rushed
i know that
when someone reads
something of this sort
they aren't thinking
about what i was feel
ing when i wrote it all
down. the feelings in
side of me thrashing
and driving me mad
and mad
and
i just don't feel comfo
rtable lately knowing th
at there are people taki
ng my heartache for gr
anted just reading and
not knowing the emotion
behind all this shit and
not even knowing the
full story. one day i
ll be able to tell ever
yone the truth behin
d the crypticism of t
his entire collection
of words but until th
en ill leave you with
this.
recklessly, i show
ed this to a comp
anion of mine and
she said, "this is
beautiful, xavier."
and i politely sai
d "thank you." b
ut it was still a t
iny bit unerving t
o know that peop
le can find your s
adness poetic w
hen all it really is
sad.
that was then.
and for now, i'm so glad
i can safely say that
i'm not sad anymor
e. not of recent hav
e i felt like crumblin
g away but instead
i want to flourish.
for her. for my mom
my sisters and my
friends and my teac
hers even. i want an
ything but their attem
pts at shaping me to
be for that of naught.
please just keep going
i promise there's som
eone rooting you on.
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YOU ARE READING
hereafter, hereafter
Poetryyou use your heart as a weapon and it hurts like heaven this is me rambling about my rl problems.