you wish you had eaten when you could didnt you.
now you're starving
you dont want to die this way
you wanted to die in a way that made your corpse inrecognizable
you couldnt control your emotions
love hate sadness anger guilt pain
happiness was somethinh you lost and faked having so the atmosphere of worry was gone
aha
pick up the blade
cut yourself tomcat
theres nothing left but death
you could wait for life to be better then die
or just stop life all together
all you have to do is
get yourself out of your room
and run onto the highway
i hate being so sensitive, im a coward, a huge coward.
i don't feel like im enough for them anymore.
the neglect is a lot, i know you're busy but
days
nearing a week
and nothing
i m l o s i n g m y m i n d
i should have stuck by my words, don't fall in love again after you lost him.
its only pain after that, you'll keep remembering how much he loved you and realize you're not being loyal
what is wrong with you TomCat
failure
you can't even stick by those words
his death ruined you so much you just couldn't, you desperately needed comfort
and you handled years without it until you found it again
But now you're losing it
Again
You're losing it all over again
Your mind hurts with the thought of losing your current
AND YOU PROBABLY WILL
YOU LOST YOUR SPECIALNESS AND IN YOUR HEAD YOU CANT STOP THINKING THEY DONT LOVE YOU ANYMORE
NOBODY CAN HELP YOU
NOBODY
STAY SILENT AND DIE
BE THE LONELY GIRL AGAIN YOU DONT DESERVE ANYTHING BUT SUFFERING
THE REAL SUFFERING
MENTAL TORTURE
YOU SHOULDVE FLIPPED THE BOYS SWITCH SO HIS GROUP COULD BEAT YOU UP SO NOBODY WOULD EVER LOVE THAT DISGUSTING FAILURE
NO MATTER HOW MUCH THEY SAY YOURE A GOOD PERSON YOU ARE NOTHING BUT A PIECE OF GARBAGE
YOU SHOULDVE DIED
YOU SHOULD HAVE BEEN ABORTED
YOU ARE NOTHING
I AM NOTHING I HATE MYSELF
I DONT LIKE ANYTHING ABOUT ME
I AM DISGUSTING
I SHOULD DIE
I DONT DESERVE ANYTHING BUT IT
NO I DONT DESERVE TO DIE
IT ENDS THE SUFFERING I DESERVE MORE SUFFERING IM A HORRIBLE PERSON I SHOULDNT DIE
I SHOULD JUST DIE
NO SUFFER I HATE MYSELF
I
i don't even know why i can be tolerated when all i am is a sad piece of crap.
i am not good enough
YOU ARE READING
not your cup of tea (venting)
Randomtw : this will include depressing and suicidal themes as it is a vent book. occasionally i will share vent drawings that may cause some bad thoughts to you. a/n : i share this because im still hoping somebody will help me i cant breathe anymore. im...
