It starts out small
I do something wrong
make a fool of myself
feel like I no longer belong
Then i'm in tears
my eyes puffy and red
i'm rocking, feeling so small
wishing I could just be dead
No one knows this happens
I'm all alone in this room
This is not an anxiety attack
this is only before darkness consumes
Seconds later, I can't breath
I am holding on to nothing
My whole life is slipping away
I will never be anything
I am dying
I don't belong alive
no one sees this
the dark has just arrived
it is twenty minutes later
I am still dying
the counselor doesn't see this
no one will see hope bursting
I am about to explode
I try to catch my breath
I fall asleep standing up
closer than ever to death
no one sees this
I don't call it anxiety
the counselor thinks it is but
I don't think the name fits clearly
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An Honest Thought
PoetryThese are all my honest thoughts personified into poetry that'll never be bestselling. (I will probably be finishing this in a couple years and publishing it) Highest Ranking: #660 in Poetry