hey, if you're reading this, try listening to "sinking friendships" by jonsi in the background!! jonsi is v cool and one of my favorites to listen to when i write
2007
it was the first time i had ever seen a firefly up close, i think
they have eyes like black diamonds, and tiny feet
silver feathery wings
my only wish in life was to be close with winged creatures, my only hope of believing
there was an escape in the sky
i remembered sam
placing on one my palm and i was stuck between horror and fascination
the state of mind where the best ideas happen
the grass was full of them, ripe, like berries for the picking
i tried to memorize how sam looked in the faint golden glow of the bugs, different parts of his face illuminated
the bridge of his nose, the side of his left molar
how his eyelid looked smudged with vaseline
the dry gray skin on his elbow, and how even it looked like magic in the firefly light
i tried to memorize the color of the night sky
how it wasn't really black but it wasn't really blue, sort of a bruise color
but too pretty to be called a bruise, so i decided that it was
indigo, a color nobody really cared enough to imagine out loud
i remembered marissa screaming as one landed on her collarbone
like little sparks
we kept them in a jar for a while, to light up the kitchen
someone sang about country roads, mountains, and lovers left behind
the sky was indigo
the air smelled like rain
don't worry
it was the good kind of rain
2017
there is a single firefly resting in the grass
but the sky is not indigo
it is definitely bruise colored, and not pretty enough to be given a unique name
i am too tired to go outside
someone has embroidered meaningless textbook pages over the fabric of my skin
my joints cannot move for some reason
it isn't arthritis
it's just guilt that i've forgotten what it feels like to be a child
the sky is not indigo
the air smelled like rain
don't worry
i wasn't outside to feel it anyway
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homeland burning
Poetryhear your homeland calling as it burns to ash. 2017, wiildflowerhoney.