i heard from someone that my grandmother liked to draw as a child
she would use her fingers to draw in the dirt
or make abstract masterpieces out of stolen flour from her mother's kitchen
my grandfather told me that she was caught drawing coconut trees in class one time
on the paper she should have been copying formulas on
she was punished
and the drawings were burned
as if she had done something indecent
like perhaps, she had drawn the trees in cherry red bikinis sipping on margaritas
she dreamt of traveling india on a train
head against warm glass
the air thick with the smell of bittersweet things and ocean fragments
with a notepad propped against knees, scabby from kneeling on hot stones to wash pans
she was married at eighteen
i heard from my grandmother that she never got the chance to pick up a pencil
after that
i wondered why, when i was a child and slept in her bed, she'd use her index finger
to trace strange patterns and wonderful designs on the fabric of my back
dancing tigers, and flaming suns
she draws a train somewhere in the mountains, on a snake-looking road
with warm glass windows and vendors serving chai in the aisles
there is a girl with scabby knees with hope in brown eyes, watching the trees roll by
last year, my grandmother showed me how she made those flour masterpieces,
kneeling out on the terrace in a peacock colored sari
it made me want to cry
how she could create the entire universe out of a handful of flour
we stared at it for hours
somewhere in the distance, just a few inches beyond the reach of our fingertips, a train
called out
winding through the mountains
on a snake-looking road.
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homeland burning
Poetryhear your homeland calling as it burns to ash. 2017, wiildflowerhoney.