1-800-273-8255 ~ Logic feat. Alessia Cara & Khalid
Ethan's POV
"Dinners ready!" Shouts my mum.
I hear the tumbles of my brother and sister running down the stairs desperate to eat.
I walk down the stairs and fake smile at my mum. "Are you okay Eteeweetee?"
"I'm fine mum" I lied.
I look up at Grayson. He scoffing the spaghetti down like he hasn't eaten in a year. I look at Cameron, she's politely eating her spaghetti.
I'm just swirling it around my fork, I take one. Fuck. It's like glue in my mouth. I swallowed it anyway.
"Mum I feel sick can I go to bed?" I lied again.
"Of course Ethan, but remember you haven't been to school in weeks and your attendance is getting worse"
As soon as I'm in my room I lock my door and put a note up saying I'm asleep.
I take my little box of happiness out of my wardrobe. I see tons of cannabis. Fuck yeah.
*2 hours later*
After doing about 7 splifs and chugging a whole bottle of vodka, I fall asleep.
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I wake up the next morning still feeling down. Fuck, I'm always feeling down.
Why am I upset all the time? I've got nothing to complain about, I'm just being a selfish dickhead.
I go over to my mirror and stair at the mess I front of me. I look a mess, my eyes are still really red from the weed, I have huge bags under my eyes and I smell like weed and vodka.
I go over to the bathroom and have a cold shower to try and wake me up.
I change into some jeans and a Tommy Hilfiger jumper. I put a beanie on and brush my teeth. I spray myself about 141901 times to try and get rid of the weed and vodka smell.
I wait in the kitchen for Grayson. His girlfriend Sapphire arrives. She's your average basic bitch.
I can tell she's frightened of me so I just let her go to Grayson's room and get the bus myself.
I sit in the back corner and just put my headphones in and look out the window.
I hate myself.
