A Touch of Innocence

Warrior

I'm in pain
Everyday
Every minute
I'm in pain
My body is attacking itself
There's nothing the doctors can do
Except
Prescribe medication
Medication that make me sick
That makes me at risk for cancer suicide and so much more
There's nothing my parents can do
Except
Watch their little girl go through pain
Every day
There's nothing I can do
Except
Keep breathing
Except when I do
When I try to take in a breath
School piles up
Extensions may be made
And if they are
It's no easier
You notice
My classmates notice
They ask questions
And most don't understand the answer
They reply to my diagnosis saying
I'm lucky
I'm lucky to have a extension
I'm lucky sit out in gym
Well I have something to tell you
Shut the fuck up
Your lucky to not take multiple pills a day
Your lucky to be able to keep up with your friends
Your lucky to be able to not think your defective
Your lucky to have had a normal childhood
I get it
I'm not the only one with issues
I get it
Some people are worse off then me
I get it
So many people are fighting their own battles
I'm just one of them
I'm fighting everyday
I'm fighting a battle with no end
I will always be in pain
There is no cure
But
I will not die
My life span will most likely not be affected
So no
The public will not see me
They will look right over me
I will be in the crowd
With my sad little ice pack
Faking a smile
And getting through the day
Awaiting the next
And having to explain everything all over again