Mine

Carpe Diem/A Call to Arms

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A/N: DUE TO WATTPAD IGNORANCE OF PLACING MY CHAPTER IN PRIVATE AND REFUSING TO UNDO IT. I'VE REPOSTED THE OLD CHAPTER ABOVE THE NEW ONE. FOR THE NEW CHAPTER SKIP OVER 3 TO 4 PAGES. NEW CHAPTER WILL BE MARKED.

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The headline read: Hollywood Actress Samantha Ryan engaged to millionaire tycoon Jax Carruthers

I ran to the bathroom and vomited. I knew Jax would have to move on at some point in his life. He couldn't wait on me forever. I had hoped. I had been preparing to make my move and now it's too late.

I guess a year was too long to wait.

Too bad because he and I were going to have some words.

Hopefully.

Tonight, I was headed back to Fantasy.

I heard snickering over my shoulder. I didn't have to turn around to see who it was. Inwardly, I groaned. I hated living in the same house as this bastard. Thankfully, we don't stay in the same room. I try to walk around him, but he always follows me like some damn lost puppy.

"Looks like your boyfriend has moved on," he spoke into my left ear. The heat of his breath on me makes my skin crawl.

I cringe in the opposite direction. "I don't understand why you feel the need to speak with me."

Adam roughly twisted me around to face him. Lately, he's been on this kick of being rough and pushing and just plain putting me in misery. I was close, very close, to freeing myself from him. I only needed him to say the right words. The phrase that could put him in prison, and free Jax from harm once and for all. All I needed was a few more days to wear him down.

"You are my wife," Adam growled. "I have the right to do what I please."

I rose an eyebrow. "You could try." I was getting tired of his threats. I hated his very first threat.

I had caved. To save Jax, I allowed Adam to have my body. I hated myself every second of the time I spent with him. See, after Adam's visit to Jax's place. The very next day, new evidence came forward of my innocence. I was acquitted the same day that Pax and Dillon were arrested. They both protested their innocence, but Adam had too much evidence. They had nothing on him.

I left Jax that day.

The two of us walked out the courtroom to find Adam waiting by a limo. Jax spotted him and self consciously shielded me from him. I'll never forget the look on his face when I removed his arm from my waist and approached Adam. He called for me. I hear his voice even now. I heard him as i climbed into the backseat with Adam and I left.

The night we arrived to his place, Adam blackmailed me into having sex with him. He still had the evidence on Jax. I argued that he had lied because he changed his mind. He told me only once and he'd leave me alone. For Jax, I agreed.

I stripped off my clothes and lied on Adam's bed as a zombie. I tried to pretend he was Jax touching me the way he did. But every time, I thought of Jax, my betrayal kept staring me in the face. I knew he'd never forgive me. He'd never know what I'd done for him and that'd be okay because Jax had his freedom.

Adam did not use protection as he thrust himself inside of me. He was not into foreplay. He simply wanted to do me. He wasn't as gentle as he could've been and wasn't as rough as he could be either. I hated every second he spent on top of me. I despised myself most of all. I had made my choice and this is how I am being punished.