Psycho Within

Bitchier than the Bitch

             I displayed my nicest self when I headed towards Reign and Livia. I tried to channel my good girl aura because I know, at this very moment, all eyes are lingering on us. I need to pretend to everybody that I am very nice. Which, in truth, I'm really not.

             Pahapyaw na ismid ang iginawad ni Reign sa akin nang tuluyan na akong makalapit sa kanila. Samantalang, isang matamis na ngiti naman ang ipinakita sa akin ni Livia. I wonder though, is that smile even for real? I just shaked my head and tried to ignore it. Anyway, she's not my target. It's Reign. The bitch.

     
               "Hi! Livia right? Buti naman at dito mo napagdesisyonan na mag-sign ng contract and not to the other management. Welcome to the family! " tila excited na baling ko kay Livia then I enveloped her into a big, warm hug. Pasimple naman akong lumingon sa gawi ni Reign na tuluyan ng umismid ngayon. It's really my intention to not pay attention on her. Who is she anyway?

                "Oh my gosh! Thank you po Miss Leila! I really can't believe that you are actually talking and hugging me right now. Idol na idol po kita! " puno naman ng excitement na tugon ni Livia sa akin at nagbow pa talaga. Napatawa nalang ako sa kanyang inasta. Suprisingly, I didn't find her annoying. She's kind of amusing, in a good way. I don't know, I just felt comfortable with her presence. But, that doesn't made me a less of a bitch. Hindi ako lumalambot.

                 "Just call me Leila and thank you for idolizing me. It really touched me na may isang kapwa ko artist na nag-idolize sa akin. It's a great honor. " sagot ko sa kanya with well, a tiny bit of sincerity. 'Coz, to tell you all frankly, andami ko ng kapwa artista na nag-iidolo sa akin. Not a big deal anyway.

               "Si--sige po. Ang saya ko po ngayon Miss--I mean,  Leila. " tila nahihiya pang sagot sa akin ni Livia which made my ego boost a lot higher. What? I love being looked up to. It makes me feel powerful.

              Livia and I talked for another good 5 minutes na parang walang nag-e-exist na Reign sa tabi namin. I really wanted to laugh hard everytime I discreetly looked at her. She really looks like a fish out of water. Kung hindi pa siya tumikhim ay kunwari, hindi ko siya mapapansin. But Livia, she looked genuine in forgetting about her existence for a little while. Her face's expression is priceless!

             "Hello? Nag-uusap kayo? Talagang hindi niyo ako napansin? Andito ako oh? " inis na saad ni Reign na tila ba gustung-gusto ng manakal base sa ekspresyon ng mukha niya.

               "And you are? " nang-aasar naman na baling ko sa kanya. I intended to tell her by questioning who she is that she is just a nobody. That I don't fucking know her!

                 "Really? You didn't know me? I am The Reign Russel. One of the most famous teen stars of this generation." nakaingos na saad niya sa akin sabay ismid.

                    "Sorry. Your name? It doesn't ring a bell sweetie. Besides, I don't usually know a nobody." nakangisi namang sagot ko sa kanya dahilan upang manlaki ang kanyang mga mata. Did I just hit a nerve? Well, too bad for her.

              "Abat---" asar na lumapit pa ng bahagya sa akin si Reign at akmang hahablutin sana ang buhok ko kung hindi lang humarang si Livia sa pagitan naming dalawa.

         

               Tila bata namang napapadyak si Reign sabay walk out. Lihim naman akong napangiti. Saglit akong nagpaalam kay Livia. I told her I will just freshen up at the comfort room but I did otherwise. I secretly followed Reign.

                I saw her leaning against the wall still looking pissed. Mabilis akong lumapit sa kanya sabay salya sa kanya sa may pader. Tila nahihintakutang napatingin siya sa akin at sa kamay kong nasa leeg na niya ngayon. I firmly grasp her neck just using my right hand. Hindi ko na sana siya bibitawan ng maulinigan kong may papalapit sa gawi namin. Bahagya akong lumapit sa kanya sabat bulong sa kanyang tainga ng mga katagang...

               "I'm warning you bitch. I am bitchier than you. Don't mess with me. Or else... "

                 Sinadya kong huwag tapusin ang sasabihin ko sana at nagpasyang humakbang na papalayo. Nilingon ko siya saglit saka ngumisi ng malaki.

                I can still see the fear in her eyes... And I love it.