The Roommate Swap

Alexus- Chapter 2

Aye, its Alexus. So after my mom decided it was best we left for college I've been packing for weeks. I made sure I packed condoms. Since Dad died I've been falling into bad habits. Fucking random guys, drugs, drinking, cutting, and partying. I'm so jealous of Darcie, coping with this so well. Dad was like my anchor to LaLa Land. Reality is so cruel, Darcie just doesn't get it, keeps her nose in a book 24/7 and my Mom is so pathetic, finally leaving her. Wait till she finds out her precious little girl lied and we won't be sharing a dorm, I will want to watch that show. So I found out I'm sharing a dorm with some Nerd, UGH maybe I could fuck him for homework answers. I mean he's decent looking but I don't need some nerd telling me how to live my life. I have one at home already. I wonder if I'll get a good dancing troop. I love dancing here, maybe London will have troops too. I mean my grades are good enough to get into Uni so obviously I'm not totally stupid, I used to be a nerd but being bad is so much more easier. Thing is, everyone mistakes me as a good girl, because on the inside I am, this bad girl act helps me cope. I'm anorexic and super small. I have sliky. long ombre hair, naturally dirty blonde hair. My eyes are a deep green, most guys drool over them, I think they're boring.  I'm not stuck up but I know I'm not that ugly. I have confidence. Although, I have to admit I am kind of nervous to start Uni, I won't have Darcie to help me anymore or my Mom to support me, not that she did anyway. I sheltered Darcie from it, but Mom abused me, I took the beatings  and told her if she laid a finger on Darcie in a harmful way I would call the cops. I tried being a good sister, It's a new year.. new start. Maybe the good girl in me will come back and show through again, I just miss dad so much. He just left, no warning at all, he went to sleep and didn't wake up. just like that, death took his life. That's why on my 18th birthday I got Stay Strong on my wrists and Live on my shoulder blade. Small reminders, the scars are fading. I start packing the last box. Ugh I swear if I see another box, I'm gonna scream. I carefully place my picture of My sister, Dad, and I sitting on the park swing on our 7th birthday. With that one last thing I finished packing. Uni better be prepared for me.