Cømpletely Different (Johnnie Guilbert)

Really Bad Day

Dylan's POV

We were still together in a tight hug

"I need to sleep" I say

He pulls from the hug

"okay goodnight" I see out my window it's dark outside

Oh yea time changes in Ireland and L.A

He gives me a kiss on the cheek with last 3 seconds
When he pulls away I kiss him on the lips just a quick peck witch isn't even a half second

Why did I do that I'm not suppose to kiss my best friend on the lips

"sorry.. Goodnight" I hug him once more and he leaves closing my bedroom door behind himself

I go to my washroom and open the cabinet under the sink
I pick up my blade that was sitting on the bottom

I haven't use this forever

I hold it in my hands
I walk out of my washroom shutting the light off

I sit on my bed with my back against the wall

I set my pillow on my lap and set my arm on top of it

'should I do this I was going so strong without cutting myself' I think to myself

'I promised Johnnie that I wouldn't do this'
'but I need to'
'I need to take the pain'
'maybe someday all together the pain will be gone'

Without thinking the blade slid across my arm
And everything washed away

With every cut I said a word that explains me

"stupid" I mumbled
"ugly"
"sad"
"miserable"

Only four cuts that's all

I fall to sleep like that without putting my pjs on and taking out my contacts

I wake up to Johnnie shaking me

"Dylan" he says

I open my eyes everything was so bright I squeeze my eyes shut again

I have a headache my arm hurts and I can barley move I'm weak

"Dylan" he says a bit louder

I open my eyes finally and look down at my arm

I didn't clean it
There is blood all over my pillow the blade is sitting still in my weak hand

"why" was all I her from Johnnie before I fall to sleep again

Johnnies POV

I wake up myself
Usually Dylan would wake me

I get up and get ready for the day

I walk over to Angelina and Dylan's apartment
Angelina is spending the night with Bryan again

I go to Dylan's room and I open hers door

I see her
She's leaning against hers wall with a pillow in hers lap
Hers one knee is up I can't see what she had until I get closer

Hers pillow is full of blood she has 4 fresh cuts on hers arm with a lade in the same hand of hers arm with the cuts

She promised she wouldn't hurt herself

"Dylan" I shake her

She dons't move. I feel hers pulse it's fine just kinda slow

I shake her again "Dylan"

She opens hers eyes but shuts them quickly again

I say hers name again she soon opens hers eyes and looks down at hers arm