In a Relationship with Dashed (Completed)

C67: When Dashed Bids A Goodbye.

67: When Dashed Bids A Goodbye

"Dashed... do you have a problem?" I asked him gently as I ran my fingers through his hair.

Magmula pa kasi kaninang pumunta kami rito sa Big Handy's Grounds, I could feel that he's been lost in thought. He drove me here in the middle of the night to watch the stars together, but I couldn't feel his presence. Masyado siyang tahimik.

I know something has been bothering him these past few days. Gusto ko mang magtanong, but I couldn't bring myself to do it dahil gusto kong siya mismo ang magsabi about what he was going through with Seirra. It's been two weeks since that day, pero wala namang nanggugulo sa akin.

Si Dashed lang talaga ang inaalala ko. Hindi ako manhid. Alam kong may nagbago sa kanya simula noong araw na iyon.

"Bronywn..." I felt my whole body freeze when he called me by name. Gods. Should I be nervous about the way he's speaking now? "You know how much I love you, right? I love you to the point where I'm willing to sacrifice my happiness for you..."

And my tears began to fall. I think I understand where he's going with this. He's going to hurt me.

Is he going to choose Seirra over me?

"I'm willing to do everything... just to protect you. Just to keep you safe. Baby, ayos lang na ako iyong masaktan... iyong magdusa, iyong maghirap... basta 'wag lang ikaw."

"Why are you telling me this?" I bravely asked.

No, Dashed. I can't lose you.

I can't afford to lose you.

"Because I don't want you to doubt my feelings," he said, cupping my face. I'm sitting on the grass now while he's lying between my legs. "Never in my entire life have I loved like this... ngayon lang... at sa'yo lang. And thank you so much for teaching me how to love deeply and truly, Bronywn."

"Don't say these things as if you're saying goodbye, Dashed," my tears kept flowing. "I tell you, I will never give you up. No matter what you do. No matter what you say. No matter who gets in our way... I will stay. I won't leave you."

He was about to say something, but we were interrupted when his phone rang. Kinuha niya iyon mula sa bulsa ng pants niya. My heart was pounding hard with the nervousness I'm feeling.

I could sense it.

I could feel it.

Something's bad news is about to come.

Dashed looked at me, asking for permission. His eyes were bloodshot. He looked tired. And right now, I didn't know what was happening to him, so I just nodded my head.

"Hello? Tita?" he said after answering the call.

I tried to calm myself. I heard sobs coming from the other end of the line, and I didn't like it. Mas lalo lang akong binalot ng takot at kaba.

"Seirra's tempted to take her life, Dashed! This is all your fault!" the woman announced between her sobs, and all I felt was horror.

My eyes shifted to Dashed. Kita kong gumuhit ang matinding pag-aalala sa mukha niya. "Tita... I'm sorry..."

"Don't sorry me, you asshole! Get your ass right here or else, I'm going to ruin your girlfriend's life!"

And the call ended.

I wanted to talk, but I couldn't find the right words to express myself. Dashed's hands were trembling.

He's shaking in fear. I hate seeing him like this.

I thought... everything was okay.

I thought the problems were over.

Pero nagsisimula pa lang pala kami.

"Dashed..." my voice broke, and I leaned in to cup his cheek. "Don't go, please... stay with me."

"Bronywn, please... don't make this hard for me." umiwas siya sa mga haplos ko.

It stung. My heart sank. But I chose to hide the pain.

"Choose me."

But he only shook his head.

"If choosing you will mean putting your life in danger... I'm sorry, Bronywn. But I'd rather hurt myself than to risk your security," a tear fell from his eye, and it felt like my heart was breaking into pieces. "I have to face this. Lahat ng 'to, para sa'yo... don't ever think otherwise. Please..."

I shook my head. Tears kept running. I probably looked desperate. But no, I couldn't let him decide!

"Then, let's fight together!" I yelled at him. "Don't face the problem alone, Dashed! I am your girlfriend! I am your freaking girlfriend! Hindi ako makakapayag na dahil lang kay Seirra, masisira tayong dalawa!"

Tumayo siya mula sa pagkakahiga sa akin. Tumayo din ako para harapin siya.

"I can't forgive myself if something bad happens to you, baby... Please, let me handle this alone." he pleaded again.

I reached for his hand. I gripped it. Pero pakiramdam ko, unti-unti akong nadurog nang maramdaman ko ang unti-unti rin niyang pagbitaw.

"Why are you doing this, Dashed?! Don't leave me just like this!"

His eyes were filled with tears. Nahihirapan siya. Kitang-kita ko iyon but damn it, nahihirapan din ako! "I'm sorry, Bronywn. But we need to take a break."

My knees weakened. I felt a mixture of anger, hurt, and betrayal swirling inside me. Mas lalo ring dumami ang mga patak ng mga luha ko. How could he do this to me?

"W-Why?" I asked him again, feeling deeply betrayed.

"Maybe... this isn't the right time for us."

"Did you ever love me, Dashed?"

"I love you. I still do. And nothing can change what I feel for you," he answered without hesitation. "But things are still complicated, Bronywn. We just... can't be together as of now..."

"So, you're choosing her over me?" this time, I asked in disbelief.

"I will choose her because I don't want her to harm you. Please..."

I shook my head and looked at him intently. "No. Don't fool me. You're choosing her because you wanted to. And you know choosing her will also mean hurting me, right?" my eyes gone cold. The pain of his choice cut deep. "And yet, you still did."