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by Winenct15

by Winenct15

Somi's POV

When I saw him at the bus. Staring at me. I don't know how to feel.

Why is it so hard for you Jangjun?
To properly see me trying?

I get shocked to see
How much I can hurt because of you
My days are a struggle
Even my dreams are painful

It if was you, how would it be?
If these crazy days
Became yours?

If you break down as much as me
Will you know?
All the pain that fills me
To the point where my heart is about to explode
How much I want you?

If I was you
I would just love me

My heart is endlessly down in the ground
I’m afraid of everything that surrounds me

They say you’ll be happy when you fall in love
Who said that?
Because I only know a love
That looks at you from behind

It if was you, how would it be?
If these crazy days
Became yours?

If you break down as much as me
Will you know?
All the pain that fills me
To the point where my heart is about to explode
How much I want you?

I know you already answered me
I know the meaning of an answerless answer
But I pretend not to know and I’m lingering

Do you know how I’m doing these days?
I can’t even fall asleep
I can’t even swallow anything

Do you know that I’m becoming more ruined
As I look at you?
I feel like dying
Even though there’s no way you’ll come to me
Even though I know you’re looking somewhere else

I don’t think I can let go of you

I want to say this to you. But it's hard for me too Jangjun. You're not the only one who is living. By my remaining time in this world. I just want to be happy. I just want to be free also. It's not easy. It's really not easy. I love you and I need you Jangjun.

Guyssss
A new update if you're just wondering this scene at the bus is after the meeting. You know, the last chapter at the book one. Yes, Somi and Jibeom became "friends" again. They are not on a relationship. But chapter 1 to 8 is like the throwback of everything.

So Thank you for reading my story. Don't forget to vote and comment.

I have exams tomorrow so wish me luck. Fighting!

The idea of the story is from the song "If it is you". Thank you very much for the composer of the song.