Breathe [jungkook]

5: Unspoken feelings.

Jungkook p.o.v

I slid down the wall in a store, taking out a familiar tiny stick out of my back pocket. I took out my lighter and ignited the end of the cigarette while sipping at the other end. I blew it out as I gently hit the back of my head to the wall.

Closing my eyes, I remembered back the time where I finally confessed my true feelings towards Haeri. Am I imagining things, or did I really saw pain in her eyes ? 

It's not my fault. I really don't have any feelings for her since the day we first announced by our parents that we're getting married. 

I wanted this to stop, but I don't want to disappoint my parents. I became an idol out of my choice when they don't really want to let go of me. I still remember the plea I heard from my mother to not becoming an idol and just be their sweetheart.

So, i'm going to fulfill their wish by getting married to a girl that I don't have feelings for , Park Haeri.

I've never know this would take a heavy toll on me.

After a few sip, I felt it getting pulled from my finger. I instantly looked up and saw Yoongi-hyung threw it on the floor and stepped on it. I groaned as I saw him, looking away.

"I told you to stop. Its not funny anymore." Yoongi grunted before took a place beside him. I sighed as I still avoiding his eyes. I could feel his strong gaze on me.

"You can just tell them you don't want to." softly, Yoongi said to me. Hearing that, a sigh yet again came out from my lips. 

"I can't do that." sullenly I said, turning at him with my sullen eyes. I saw how his eyes cocked in worried after looking straight into my eyes. I then leaned my head back to the wall, closing my eyes as my face got tighten.

"I don't want to disappoint them. They really love her." 

"But do you love her ?"

I then looked at him from the corner of my eyes, giving him a 'are-you-serious' look. He saw how cold my eyes glared at him from aside, which make him composed himself, feeling agitated.

"B-but, Park Haeri isn't that bad, no ? She's beautiful." Yoongi tried to reason with me again. I grunted as I heard that. I thought he actually can help me with all of this, but he told me that she's beautiful ?

Yeah she's beautiful, but I don't love her, but the weird thing is, her new personalities that are foreign to me makes me question myself again.

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Haeri p.o.v

Today, our parents decided to have dinner together in an extravagant restaurant. The thought of facing Jungkook again makes me nervous. It makes me hurt thinking that he's going to play his role as boyfriend again.

I don't want to disappoint my parents. Whenever we had our dinner, they always asked me about him. Last week, she asked me how my time with Jungkook. I told me it was fun, well, its half-truth.

Whenever Jungkook treat me like a princess I am, it felt so real. The stares he sent me felt sincere, love, and cherish. I can't believe I've lied to myself by believing he sent me those feelings through his cold eyes.

Since Jungkook doesn't want to disappoint his parents, he had send me a beautiful red dress. It hug my body perfectly, as if he had measured my body whenever he hug me in front of our parents. I slowly wrapped my arm around my body, trying to reenact the hug he would give me.