A Complicated Love with a Complicated Choice [DISCONTINUED]

Chapter 10: Nature

~To be honest I don't know where to start now, I'm kinda lost. I'm so happy that you readers--- We are reaching 1k and it has a lot for me to take in honestly. This isn't my first time creating but heck, all of those stories I've done were forgotten but left behind a few smiles.

Also, my book is ranked #5 for Takuran and I'm happy for it. But its hilarious that the category was Takuran. I haven't or let's say, Kirino is still lost. But overall, I got into rank #13 but I'm happy with it. But hey, its a number, what place I'm in, I'm still happy I got into one

The votes, the readers, you guys are absolutely wonderful. I'm so happy that you got stumbled into an immature and low made book that I my imagination had worked out. I'm too happy but depressed at the same time how my inspiration for writing is starting to disappear.

That's the reason why I've been off, so expect some slow updates. I'm sorry you guys, I guess laziness has been keeping me off and I'm even helping a pal for our book in Wattpad. So yeah. And what can I say? I'm trying my best not to give up on you guys because I know you're expecting how this story will end. What more can I say? Thank you.

And expect some ton load of modifications coming from me since I need to polish some sh*t and add a few touches here and there. A soft update if I must say.

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Shindou's POV

"I know I said that were going to have a date, just the two of us..." I asked with an irritated voice and he seem to notice my emotion. Kirino let out a nervous chuckle with a slight hurtful expression, I gave him a small smile and mouthed sorry followed by a pinch on his cheek. The pink haired boy was surprise, but end up smiling.

"Who are we waiting again?" I asked without interest and then we soon head out at downtown.

"Dummy, they're the ones waiting for us. I-its a secret...he told me."

"Though, I don't remember you saying we have...company..." I glanced at Kirino for a second, enough for me to see his shocked expression. It was enough for me to understand.

"I did, but it was unexpected really! And I'm somewhat curious why..." My brow raised and went in the middle of processing while looking back and forth at Kirino slightly. 'Curious with what?'

"I'll keep this brief okay? But I had a thought in mind...We're not actually a thing...yet?" I looked at him in surprise. I wasn't expecting him to ask something ironic? //You may now call me an idiot on this part, be my guest//

"What made you think about that...? Is there a problem with it?"

"No! No...I shared my first kiss with you...Our, first kiss...But its plain weird why you didn't asked me that question yet... No, I'm not rushing for you to do it... But I think--- You seemed like you've hesitated before..."

Deep inside me triggers a sealed memory. Memories flashed before my eyes, the same scene happening at the exact location, how I hear his fading voice again. Keeping myself in sane, I remain positive and bury that distraction I felt. I want him to know, but I have to hide from the truth...Kirino doesn't deserve to be hurt...

"Kirino... I-it's not like that!" I grabbed his hands and held it. "I was...scared..." Regardless, I am scared.

In my peripheral vision I saw kirino flashed a confuse expression. "Why are you apologizing Shin...?" My tongue beginning to dry up, searching up the words I need to say.