Poems With Reason

~Broken Part ll~

How could I have been so blind,

So naïve to really think,

That you might actually be mine.

I was excited for a second shot,

For you and I to be us.

Instead I'm here,

Re-reading one sentence over and over,

My heart in a knot.

I know theirs something your not telling me,

Its not that we won't work.

I know the truth,

Its gone around and it's caught up,

That you've got someone else.

I tried to act like it didn't bother me,

Like I was happy you had someone that cared.

But I just couldn't watch,

As you two looked like the perfect pair.

Every time I look at her,

I see the person i needed to be.

The person I needed to act like to be your everything

I was never going to be as skinny as her,

Never going to be as pretty as her,

She was just so perfect.

I'm a girl with problems,

The only way I could be that skinny is to not eat at all,

The only way I could be that pretty is by having a major plastic surgery,

The only way I could be perfect is to become a whole other person.

I don't want to be a fake,

I don't want to be someone I'm not,

With my make-up painted on like a cake,

It's not who I am.

I've came to the conclusion,

That I'll wait around,

And I'll be the one their to fix what's broken,

When she takes your heart,

And smashes it on the ground.

I care about you to much to let you go completely,

I think.. wait no,

I know,

That we can make it work again if you gave us a chance.

I know I'm not perfect,

I'm possessive and protective,

And I get jealous,

I just don't wanna loose you.

If she happens to be the one,

And we are definitely over and done.

I hope you know,

That if you need me,

I'll always be their,

I'd drop everything,

Because I'll always care.

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~Chels.