Love Out of Lie

Chapter 5

Chapter 5 | Genuine

Naturally as a human being, it would take us more than twenty-four hours to decide regarding something. We couldn't just decide on the spot or else things would probably mess up in the future.

As a realistic person, I always think ahead before letting things out of my mouth... or at least I'd try to be like that in most situations.

But with Trojan, my system would just forget about the things I was supposed to do. I'd jump into that moment and get lost afterward... and so I wondered, why the fuck did I say yes to Jijinia when she asked me about my fictional fiance?

"N-Nakita mo ba ang mukha niya?" my lips trembled as I asked my friend about Trojan.

"Hindi pero narinig ko lang kayong parang nag-aaway," she answered innocently, "siya nga ba ang fiance mo?"

I said this multiple times already, I didn't want to talk about this topic anymore. Bukod sa nahihiya ako para sa sarili ay hindi ko lagi alam ang isasagot. If my heart was one of the runners in a competition, it would've won.

Hindi man niya nakita o napansing isang Mikael Trojan Zorron lang naman ang kasama ko, kabado pa rin ang aking sistema sapagkat kailanman ay hindi ko inisip gamitin si Trojan bilang panakip-butas sa problemang ito.

"You okay? Para kang iiyak, okay lang ba talaga kayo o ano?" she asked me with a pure concern.

"Okay lang ako, Ji... so forget about it—"

"Pero siya nga ba?" pangungulit niya.

"Oo," my mouth just stated it, "saka wala na 'yon. Hindi na kami ang ikakasal in the future kaya move on na tayo, okay?"

God, what was I saying? For heaven's sake, Jijinia, ang tagal mo na akong kaibigan at kasama hindi mo pa rin ba nahalatang hindi naman iyon totoo? For a second I thought of saying the truth, to finally reveal about the prolonged prank.

When she stated, "Buti naman at hindi na kayo. As your friend, I really want the best for you," the braveness I tried building just faded.

Pinili ko na lamang hindi sumagot sa huling sinabi ng kaibigan bagkus ay akin siyang tinitigan upang ipaalala sa sarili kung paano at bakit siya ang aking piniling kaibigan.

Sa nagdaang taon ay hindi bababa sa lima ang grupo ko ng kaibigan at aaminin kong naging masaya ako kasama ang mga taong iyon... ngunit sa paglipas ng panahon ay tila ba gano'n na lamang din ang pagbawas nila.

Ganito na nga lang siguro, hindi natin matutukoy kung ang iyong naging una ay siya ring makikita mo sa huli. I had no bad feelings or any grudges after ending friendships with others. After all, I wasn't only the one who experienced such thing.

Instead, I focused on who stayed and she was obviously Jijinia. Kaya ang hirap pakawalan, ang hirap i-risk ang simpleng pagsabi ng totoo para magkaliwanagan.

After that day and the swimming event my section scheduled, I didn't visit Jijinia anymore. She understood though, mother and I also had things to do within the Christmas break.

We had the chance to go out of town and celebrate Christmas along the serenading sound of the beach and cold breeze of the wind.

Jijinia tried to contact me whenever I opened my accounts but I chose to ignore even just for now. I'd been thinking of her for too long now to the point I almost forgot to reflect on myself.

The guilt was still in me and I think this won't ever leave me anymore... and I did this all for our friendship.

"Wow," I whispered to myself and chuckled.