SanderSides One-Shots

I was there first

T.W: Yelling, cussing, mentions of abuse
Ship: Platonic DeceitxVirgil and toxic past Deceit and Anxiety
ThirdPerson'sPOV
Roman, Patton and Logan had all noticed how hostile Deceit and Virgil were to each other. Ever since Deceit first appeared Virgil was put on edge. Everytime they were in a room together they would either glare or find some excuse to leave, the other three even had to break up a pretty intense fight between them. Nothing physical, just lots of mean words and hissing from both parties. They haven't gone near each other since and the tension is making everyone else feel unsafe. Logan has a plan that will possibly help them resolve things but it could also turn out to be very dangerous so he needs Patton and Roman to make it work.
Virgil was already in the living room, blocking out the world with the help of his headphones. All that was needed now was to get Deceit in there. Patton sets off and knocks on his door, "Deceit? Can you come on out kiddo?" It took a little bit before he stepped out of his room but he didn't make any move to follow Patton. "Why might I ask?" Deceit, wanting an answer, follows Patton into the living room while asking for a reason. Once they made it to the living room Deceit saw Virgil and made a move to leave, until Roman blocked the hall that leads to the rooms. Virgil notices and frowns at the both of them, "What's going on?" Patton looks a bit guilty but determined all the same.
"We're solving your problems kiddos. You two need to work things out."
"But dad I-"
"Now Virgil."
Virgil looked shocked at the tone Patton used but sat down anyway, "Yes dad..." Deceit also sat down away from Virgil in order to not have Patton talk to him like that. "Now, what is with you two? Ever since Deceit came along you've been different Virgil. Deceit you've been acting weird as well so don't even try to deny it." Virgil looked at Deceit, like actually looked not glared, and they seemed to have some silent conversation before speaking to the others. "Dad....all of you really....if you really want to know what has happened between us..then you need to hear everything. Starting from the beginning.."
Virgil'sPOV:
Fuck I'm actually about to tell them. Why? Why now? Shit they are staring at me. Say something you anxious piece of sh-, "Okay, so all of you know I didn't..come from the same place you did right?" Logan and Patton nod but Roman looks confused.
"What do you mean? We're all from Thomas' mind are we not?" I look to Logan to explain and with a nod to me he turns to Roman. "While we all do come from Thomas, Virgil is actually a direct result of Patton. Anxiety being something you feel and Morality being the source of all feelings, so when Patton calls Virgil son he actually isn't too far off." Roman looks to be understanding so Logan goes on, "But since Virgil is classified as negative he was sent to the dark part of the mind. Nothing Patton nor I could do anything about it, we had to wait until he was a full trait so he could be with us."
I nod and so does snake-face. We catch each others eye and glare, letting out quiet hisses. "Stop looking at me." He smirks, "Yes because I like looking at you." I just roll my eyes, wanting to end this interaction quickly.
"Whatever snake-face."
"Indeed raccoon."
"Dish washer."
"Angst machine."
"The 1960's called, they want their ugly hat back."
"2007 called, they want their horrible style back."
"Wal-Mart salamander."
"Freak at the everywhere." Getting fed up I hiss at him, "Shut up!" He gives one back and before he can reply all Pat has to do is clear his throat to get us back on track. "Boys. Stop it now please." We both flinched at his dad voice but stopped looking and speaking to each other. With a sigh I turn back to them three and continue where I left off.
"I came from the dark part of the mind, wasn't pleasant but it was the first thing I ever knew. The other traits were the first ones I knew, I didn't even know Dad yet... They were my first family if you want to call it that."
"I never knew you thought of us as your family Anx." I tense up when Deceit uses that name. He can't call me that. No one can anymore. Ignoring him completely I press on despite the growing anxiety inside me. "I met Deceit first, he showed me around, explained what I was, how I worked and was just...nice. I got used to the dark part and accepted that it was my home. That didn't change how I felt about myself though, I felt like I was doing my job wrong. Hurting Thomas wasn't something I wanted to do and when I brought up my feelings I...wasn't treated the best afterwards."
Deceit looked away from all of us and you could feel the air get thicker with tension. "Why don't you tell them what happened after that? You seem pretty quiet for someone who basically beat me to death on more than one occasion."
"SHUT UP! I WAS TRYING TO PROTECT YOU!"
Oh hell no, I stand up as he does to yell right back at him.
"PROTECT? YOU BEAT ME!!"
"I WAS TRYING TO HELP YOU LEARN! THE OTHERS COULD'VE KILLED YOU!" I snap my head towards the others as I hear them gasp. Dad is tearing up while gripping Logan and Roman's arms to keep them seated while both look ready to kill Deceit. Taking a deep breath and holding back my own tears I talk a lot calmer, "Do you know what you and the others put me through? How much that messed with my head? I was a full four years younger than all of you! Maybe even more! I was a child that only knew how to cower in fear at any sudden movement! Hell the first time Dad hugged me I cried because that was the first time I had gotten touched in a positive way. Dammit!" I wipe the few tears that spill and keep my head down while I compose myself.
"Anxiety... I know I can never apologize enough for what I did but I tried to help you! You needed to learn your place! I was the first friend you had, I was there for you before anyone else, I was there first and I needed to protect you any way available and that was the only way." I shake my head and sit back down, wiping my eyes with my hoodie paw. I can't even look at him right now but I have to finish what I started.
"I was around, keeping Thomas safe and what not but I didn't end up here until you guys were 17. Being 13 at the time and not knowing anything other than negative actions I acted the way they wanted me to. Mean, sarcastic, rude, isolated from everything, I was just so afraid that if I didn't act the way I was supposed to here the cycle would repeat."
Patton pulled me into a hug while Deceit spoke. "No amount of sorry will ever be enough Anxiety but I want you to know that I'm sorry. The methods I used weren't the best, especially in the long run, but I know that now... It might take a while but I'm fully prepared to wait to be forgiven." I pull away from Patton and surprise everyone by pulling Deceit into a hug. He accepts it after getting over the shock, "I'm sorry.....Virgil." I give a small smile when he uses my name instead of Anxiety, "It will take some time, but you were the first one that ever cared for me so maybe not as long as you think."
Pretty soon the others joined the hug, even Logan, and things settled down. Deceit and I are going to make an effort to reconnect and understand each other better. It might take some time but I feel like we will be pretty good friends....eventually.
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