LONELY pt 1

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YOUR POINT OF VIEW

It's been 30 minuets and I'm still in the bathroom trying to calm down and stop thinking badly like I always do, life has been shit lately and everything is just crashing down. Lauren my girlfriend has been ignoring me for the last couple of days and I don't even know what I've done wrong. She keeps hanging around Brad a lot lately and she's acting like I don't even exist like I'm nothing. I don't even know what happened like last week we were so happy together and she acted like she loved me and that she wants to be with me forever but now all she seems to do is follow brad around and hang out with him every chance that she gets. Whenever I go up to her to talk to her she ignores me or says one word answers like it literally frustrates me so much, I feel like I'm slipping into my old habits and I'm scared that I will lose hope and end up doing something bad.

Anyways I decide to shake off those feelings and head out by the stage, the girls of fifth harmony were just finishing off and I was waiting patiently for them to finish. Tonight I'm gonna be playing one of my songs I just finished writing so it's brand new it's called lonely, it's a sexual song and I'll be doing some sexy dance moves, hopefully it will catch Lauren's eyes.

When they finish they came off stage one by one passing me, Lauren was the last one to walk pass me, she looked up at me and then looked back down again, what the fuck was that, she's probably gone to run off to Brad but why do I care she's better off with him and not me. He can treat her way better than me so why do I care, she's better off without me. She'll be more happier off with him not me. I just sigh and shake my head then head onto stage.

Songs later and it was time for me to perform lonely and I was hella nervous but I just washed away the feeling and focused. The lights dimmed and I got a spotlight on me. I took off my guitar and ran my hands through my hair, I took off my jacket only to leave me in my white T'shirt that was showing off my biceps and tattoos. I got a few screams and shouts from the crowd making me smirk and Laugh.

The music started playing and I looked around the crowd spotting Lauren at the near end of the stage, staring into my eyes. I closed my eyes and started singing

She felt just like you
Her arms, her lips
Her promises were just as smooth
Her grip, it fit though I'll admit that
I opened my eyes, my eyes wandering to those green orbs staring straight back at me and I gripped the microphone while doing a slight grind, she gulped while biting her lip. then I closed my eyes again
Only you could make me feel the way you do
Though you know love is blind
And she just caught my eye
You know me, and honestly I'm better without ya
I opened up my eyes and looked out the crowd
Don't you got me checking on my phone by the hour
Baby, I'm hoping and praying
My knees weak, I'm shaking
'Cause you know that I always needed saving
I looked back into the same green orbs and sang straight to, making sure she got the message
Now I'm fucking lonely, and you didn't want me
Trying to show me that you didn't own me
But all you do is leave me, fucking lonely
Knees on the concrete, cut up and bleeding
For no Goddamn reason, but all you do is leave me
I grabbed the microphone stand with my left hand while holding the microphone and started to grind while slowly going down
Fucking lonely
Leave me fucking lonely
Leave me fucking lonely
Leave me fucking lonely
I took the microphone off the stand and started to walk around the stage while singing and doing some little sexual dances here and there
The month was June
The smoky sun, our fatal run
It ended too soon
With tears as proof, 'cause all the carpets stained with juice
Blood on my shoes and you know love is blind
I can see it in your eyes
I went to the front of the stage and saw a cute fan and bend down and held her chin while singing to her.
You know me, and honestly I'm better without ya
Don't you got me checking on my phone by the hour
I winked at her and got back up walking back to the centre of the stage slowly going down on my knees while grabbing my shirt and squeezing my eyes shut to show emotion because of the next words I sang
Baby, I'm hoping and praying
My knees weak, I'm shaking
'Cause you know that I always needed saving
I stood up and went to the microphone stand to put my microphone back on it and continued singing while staring into the eyes of my lover with the green orbs, her eyes were filled with lust
Now I'm fucking lonely, and you didn't want me
Trying to show me that you didn't own me
But all you do is leave me, fucking lonely
Knees on the concrete, cut up and bleeding
For no Goddamn reason, but all you do is leave me
Fucking lonely
Leave me fucking lonely
Leave me fucking lonely
Leave me fucking lonely
Lil Wayne cane out and started rapping his part
Bitch can't even say I miss you back over the fuckin' text
Every time you slept over my pad, you over fuckin' slept
Toni Braxton told me to breathe again, don't hold no fuckin' breath
Gave your ass directions to my heart, and your ass busted left
Climbin' up the money tree, the tree without the lover's nest
'Cause lovebirds are some busy bees
You fuck around, you stung again
And you didn't leave in your underwear
'Cause she didn't arrive in no underwear
Look baby, either love is blind or nothing's there because
I can't see the forest from the tree, the water from the sea
And I was starting to believe, but it's a forest full of dreams
I smoke forests full of weed, and call you when I see you
And when you leave, I hope you know you bring
This forest to his leaves, I'm fucking lonely
I started to sing again staring into Lauren's eyes, the green orbs of my lover.
Lonely
Leave me fucking lonely
I lifted my shirt up to show my abs a little bit then bit my lip and grind on the microphone stand a little bit then continued to sing the rest
Leave me fucking lonely
Leave me fucking lonely
I ran my hand through my hair and smiled while winking at a random fan.

On the side of the stage I could see Lauren staring at me with lust in her eyes, looking like she wanted to take me right here. I just smirked and looked back out the crowd.

LAURENS POINT OF VIEW
Me and the girls just finished our set and ran off the stage, I was sweating really hard. I was the last one to come off the stage, when I walked off I passed Y/n and we looked at each other but then I looked back down and walked pass her. I could see the hurt and I've never felt more bad in my life.

I know I shouldn't be hurting her like this but I don't know. I've ignored her a lot during these pass days and I feel like shit, lately I've been hanging around Brad a lot and the girls have told me to get my head out of you're ass and focus on you're actual girlfriend who you've been ignoring and there right.

It's just that Brad and I have gotten closer and he's been there for me the last few days and I forgot about Y/n and I feel like actual shit honestly. I'm gonna make it up to her and apologise to her tonight. I miss her like crazy and her lips and her touch and everything about her, I started to cry a little bit brushed it off.

I saw Y/n go onto stage to do her set, I decided to go have a shower first then come back and watch her perform. 30 minuets later I finished and went by the near end of the stage to see her perform I think this was one of her last songs.

I mentally cursed at myself when I saw Y/n standing on the stage, she looked so hot I swear.
She took off her guitar then following by her taking off her jacket showing off her biceps and tattoos fuck I couldn't stop staring at her arms, i would be lying to myself if I said that I wasn't turned on because I really was at the moment and at the moment I just wanted to take Y/n there right-, woah Lauren calm down.

The music started playing and I didn't recognise what was playing, I think this was one of her new songs. The lights dimmed on her and she got a spotlight. She started looking around looking for someone and when she stopped looking she landed on my eyes, I could see the pain and hurt in those eyes and how cold they look. What have you done Lauren. She closed her eyes and started singing and fuck.

Fuck her voice gave me full on chills and I swear I was so turned on. When she opened her eyes to look back into me I couldn't help but bite my lip. When she started grinding on the microphone stand fuck she looked so hot like shit I'm wet. The way she gripped the microphone made me more intimidated as well and she was still staring into my eyes while biting her lip. The things I would do to her right now I thought to myself.

The whole song made me wet and fuck she looked so hot, I really wish I was that microphone stand because man was that stand the luckiest thing ever. When she would sing high parts she would tilt her head back and her neck veins would pop out and fuck you don't know how turned on I am.

When she finished the song she smiled and winked at a fan, who does she think she is winking at another person, she's mine and only mine, woah Lauren calm down. I really need to calm down, I just can't help myself if I'm really horny now.

She looked towards my direction and I think she could see how turned on I was so she just smirked and looked away, wow that doesn't help my horniness go down does it now, fuck.

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