YOUR POINT OF VIEW
I finished my set and came off stage, I didn't feel like talking to anyone especially Lauren. All I wanted to do was curl up in my bunk and sleep and nothing else. I made sure I didn't let anyone see me sneak off and I successfully did until I was about to open up my tour bus door. I was slammed against the bus and my reflexes made me shake and whimper because of how hard they slammed me. "Please don't hurt me" I said shakily while whispering
They let go and when I looked up I saw the green orbs that I've missed so much the last couple of days, I got back up and ignored her. I was mad and sad and confused on why she was here, she could of been with her boyfriend but no she was here.
I go to open up the door but Lauren puts her hand against it standing in front of the door blocking the entrance. "Lauren please just leave, you've caused too much pain on me and I just wanna be alone" I said looking down.
"Please Y/n let me explain please I miss you so fucking much and I'm so sorry for everything I've done. I've fucked up really badly and please I just wanna make everything right again please baby please" Lauren said with tears spilling down her cheeks, my heart hurt from seeing her like that.
"Fucking fine you have 5 minuets and make it quick" I said opening the door since she moved and taking off my jacket throwing it on the chair while walking to the back lounge for us to talk. She followed behind me. When we got to the back lounge I sat down and waited for her to speak, I didn't even dare to look up to her because if I did I would break Instantly.
"Y/n I'm so fucking sorry for everything I've done the last couple of days, I'm sorry for ignoring you and going off with Brad. I'm sorry for acting like a fucking bitch to you and ditching you all the time. Lately me and Brad have gotten closer and he's been there for me when you're out busy in the studio or writing songs or doing soundchecks and I just felt lonely and he was there for me and I'm so fucking blind to see that I'm making everything worse. Please Y/n please forgive me, I love you so fucking much to lose you, you're the best thing that has ever happened to me and Brad means nothing to me. You're everything to me and I just want you and only you Y/n please you have to believe me please Baby I miss you and you're kisses and hugs and you in general" she said crying
I couldn't look up to here because if I did I knew I would lose it. "Please Y/n say something" she said grabbing my hands but I flinched and moved away. The pain flashed throughout her eyes
"Lauren you don't know how much you broke me, I've been a total mess. I don't eat or talk to anyone, if I talk it's only because I have to. I couldn't even function properly, I nearly went back to my old self and that scares me to death. I was hurt, I felt like I wasn't important to you anymore and that I'm nothing and that you'd rather be with Brad instead of me because I'm such a pathetic person and all I do is ruin things like I always do. He made you more happy than I ever could and I just kept thinking that you didn't want me anymore and that Brad could make you more happy than I could ever. DO YOU KNOW HOW FUCKED UP I WAS, HOW MUCH PAIN I WAS GOING THROUGH. You're probably better off with him anyways, you can go to you're boyfriend Lauren, just leave me since he's more better for you, I'm pathetic and ugly and fat-" before I could finish my sentence Lauren yelled at me
"Y/FN DONT DARE SAY THAT, I LOVE YOU MORE THAN LIFE ITSELF, WITHOUT YOU IN MY LIFE BY MYSELF IM NOTHING COMPLETELY NOTHING. YOU MAKE ME SO FUCKING HAPPY MORE THAN BRAD COULD EVER. I DONT WANT HIM! I WANT YOU Y/N, I FUCKING WANT YOU AND ALL OF YOU. I WANNA BE THE ONE TO MARRY YOU AND TO HAVE KIDS WITH YOU AND TO DIE OLD WITH YOU. IM COMPLETELY IN LOVE WITH YOU, I DONT CARE WHO TELLS ME THAT IM NOT BECAUSE THEY ARE WRONG, BABY PLEASE. YOU ARENT FUCKING UGLY OR PATHETIC OR FAT OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT, YOU ARE FUCKING BEAUTIFUL AND HOT AND TALENTED AND ADORABLE AND AMAZING AND SO MUCH MORE. Please baby, I love you so fucking much and I want you back, I'm so broken without you. I don't even know what I would do without you with me, I'll probably die because I Wont be able to deal with the fact that You're not mine and that we won't ever be married and have kids. Please baby I'm begging you, I'm so fucking sorry for treating you like shit, please take me back please beautiful" she said holding my face with her hands while wiping the tears off my cheeks with her thumbs.
I don't know what to feel at the moment, I love this beautiful woman so much to lose her.
I lean in to kiss her, our lips crash and move together perfectly. I put all my hurt and anger and happiness in that kiss. When we pulled away I opened my eyes, looking back into those beautiful Green Orbs that never seem to amaze me. Everything about those eyes capture my whole soul and being and makes me weak in the knees.
There was only one thing to say to her that will give her the answer she's looking for.
"I'm completely and utterly in love with you Lauren Michelle Jauregui"
And with that I kissed her with everything I have in my body.
I HAVENT READ THIS YET SO LIKE IF THERES MISTAKES I APOLOGISE COMPLETELY. I HOPE YOU ENJOYED THIS STORY SINCE I AM COMPLETELY PROUD OF IT.
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