Down Ass Chick: The Finale

Chaper Four. "You don't love me."

"Bae, I don't know who told you-" I cut Rah off.

"I'm staring at the lease agreement now Rah, and I already heard Kita been all up in the car shop so please stop lying." I spoke almost too calmly.

"I don't wanna talk about this over the phone, but Ima meet you at the house in about a hour, okay Trace?" I sat there on the phone, silent. "Baby I love you please don't do nothin crazy..." He said before hanging up. I chuckled to myself thinking about this guilty nigga. I wanted to find out what the fuck was going on. But I had no time, I had to get ready to take my test to become a certified RN soon and worrying about Rah was not going to help me.

Staying with him for stability was a problem I knew I needed to face. Rah was somebody I could count on for stability and support, but not fidelity. As I grew I began to realize that we both were just depending on each other... Maybe for all the wrong reasons. I grabbed my bag and began studying. I was never really the smartest student but I was quiet. With time a lot of teachers passed me along just because I was a good person, but not in nursing school. I had worked really had these past three years and I just knew I could not fail myself and my children at this pint.

As I studied for my exam, I heard Raheem coming into the house. I am not sure why, but I felt nerves boiling in my stomach.

"Tracey..." He mumbled I sighed as I walked downstairs into the sitting area. When he saw me I think he noticed the look on my face, exhaustion.

"So wassup?" I stood. He was sitting and he patted the seat next to him for me to sit, I ignored it.

"Look, I know you think I'm fuckin around on you...but I'm not, Bae. Kita is staying at this apartment that I got, paying me rent that's all." He spoke calmly. I stared at him, eyes narrowed to slits analyzing what he said.

"So you expect me to believe this, bitch you use to fuck, even before you was fuckin me is just staying at an apartment that you're leasing? Why the fuck can't she live in the hood where she been living? If it's so innocent why don't I know about the shit?!" I screamed at him.

"Aye, what you need to do is calm the fuck down cause I'm not cursin at you. Don't talk to me like you stupid. I respect you, so respect me. I'm a grown ass man and I wanted to help out a friend. I don't have to tell you everything Tracey. Just like you ain't tell me it was a possibility Trey wasn't my son. Kita is good peoples, I knew her since high school and shit, yeah we fucked a few times but when people I know is down and I can help em, I do!"

"Wow. So you just gon hold this Trey thing over my head forever? I woulda never fucked NOBODY ELSE IN MY LIFE if you woulda left these hoes alone. I'm sorry to say but this captain save a hoe lie is bullshit. I know you fuckin that dirty bitch! And I have had time to think about all this... I'm done wit you, you wanna keep secrets and shit then you must not believe in this marriage, I wanna get separated." When the last word left my mouth a tear fell, but it had to be done, I could not stay with someone I did not trust.

"You not leavin me, I ain't marry you for no reason Tracey. Now I know shit ain't been easy, but I just want us to both get past this." He got up and tried to come near me, I turned away.

"No, it's not just this Rah, I'm sick of everything. The drug dealing, you being gone for weeks, our sons not understand why their father is never fuckin here, I'm sick of the lying and the cheating, I have given you so many chances Rah. And then for you to treat me like some whore who didn't know who her child's father was knowing the situation... You pushed me away and that is something I NEVER do to you, I always listen to you Rah, I have ALWAYS loved you enough to hear you out...you don't love me like I love you." I teared up as I raced up the stairs to grab a bag. He followed me and we stood in our room. "You always walkin out and I'm not letting you walk out again, just leave for good, leave me and my kids alone." He snatched the bag from me and grabbed me into a forceful hug.

"Baby, please I do love you. I love my kids. I just... I'm sorry if you not happy." He mumbled to me.

"Y-y-you d-don't love me... Get off me, get off me, get off me!" I screamed to him as I pulled away and started throwing his stuff into the gucci duffle.

"You really want me gone? Forreal man!" He was putting the stuff back into the drawers and I was throwing more into the bag, it was chaotic! "You know what man, fuck this. I'm done wit you too man, you trippin." He spoke as he took off his ring. I stared at him as he grabbed the bag and walked out of our house."

*****

The next day I was at the mall with my boys and Rachel. I honestly just needed to get out the house because I felt like I would have a breakdown soon. Jahiem was playing in a bouncy house while Trey laid in the stroller sleep.

"I mean, maybe y'all need this time apart. You tryna finish this degree up and get this license and Rah needs to get his fuckin mind right." She said. I sighed.

"Do you think I overreacted? I just feel like so much stuff just boiled up inside of me and I just flipped. Like how the fuck can he be still associating with Kita. I am HIS WIFE now, who cares about some old thot you use to be coo with. I just don't trust him, I always expect the worst when it comes to Rah and that's not good when you're married. I am not happy in my marriage right now." I told her honestly.

"Yeah I don't believe Rah with Kita. You know her and Kim fuck everybody. He shouldn't have even put himself in that position with her. Plus you see me and Cash back on track... Time apart might be what y'all need, but I would say don't divorce him. Just do the legal separation, y'all can coparent and all that see what happens." She said to me. I sighed.

"Yeah and later on I gotta take Trey to go see Xavier, I have not even explained to Jah that they have different dads, I don't want to confused them. Can you please keep Jah while I'm at this visit?" She nodded. "Thank you so much! I love you girl." I said to her as my phone began to ring, it was Rah.

"Hello?"

"Yeah, I just talked to my lawyer about the steps toward a legal separation." He spoke instantly.

"Yeah, I'm sure you happy you're halfway free now." I spat without even thinking.

"Man, get off my phone with that petty shit, it's what you asked for."

"It's what you MADE me do!" I yelled into the phone.

"I'm not finna argue wit you, he filing the papers, he said you need to send him a electronic signAture and everything will start to process."

"That's all you wanted?"

"Yeah, bye." He hung up in my face I rolled my eyes.

"He's hurt too, Tracey. I know him and Cash were out last night, but you know they wouldn't let me come since I'm two years sober. But I'm sure that he feels fucked up. It's hard to hear that your spouse is unhappy in your relationship." She said.

"Do you honestly think he didn't know?"

"I don't know girl... I don't know..."

a/n: hey y'all! I'm so busy with me just graduating and getting ready to go to college (hampton university if y'all wanted to know lol) but this is a lil snippet sorry for the wait! Love you guys so much. Comment back ❤️