Fast Forwarding Time
10 Years Later
“Yes ma we’re fine, I talked to Bailey yesterday.”
“I just wanted to make sure she was still coming.”
I unlocked and opened the door so Cameron could run into the house and go to the bathroom. All the way home she’d been holding it in and I had to speed home so she didn’t have an accident. After locking the door I walked towards the kitchen and put my keys and mail on the table. I sat down in one of the chairs at the table listening to my mom go on and on about how we needed to reach out to Marcell.
“Ma we don’t know where she is and you know she’s known for pulling stunts like this. This may be the longest, but I’m sure she’s fine.”
The words flowed from my mouth like they were from a script and I knew it was. It was the one in my head I had been repeating for the past 5 years. Marcell had been gone that long. This wasn’t her first time disappearing it was just the longest. The first time she was gone for a few months, but after she came back it seemed nothing with her was right.
After finding out she was pregnant with Cameron she started to straighten up, but once CJ filled her head with all the lies and promises he had been filling it with she left me full custody of Cameron. Yea I felt like she was being extremely selfish by making me raise her daughter without as a much a reason to why.
I knew she was ok because at times I’d receive calls asking on updates on Cameron, the last time I received a call was almost a year ago but I knew her voice. I didn’t tell anyone about these calls because if Marcell didn’t want to be found then why waste our time looking?
I tried to push these types of thoughts out of my head because they seemed cruel, but that’s how I feel about her at this point. She wanted to make everything about CJ and not think about anyone else that was in her life. She left her newborn daughter for me to raise as my own and left it to me to tell this little girl that I wasn’t her mom.
“Jordy.. Jordy?”
“Oh sorry what were you saying?”
She sighed and I knew that all of this was taking its toll on her, but I could do nothing to help. I had a business to run and bills to pay like everyone else. I couldn’t throw all of that into a PI to find Marcell. Why bring her back for her to hate us? The police knew she was alive just like we all did so there was no point in fighting a losing battle. She would come back when she was ready.
“I just want her to come back Jordy, you and Bailey act like she never existed and that’s not good for that little girl you’re raising!”
I was tired of having these conversations with my mom and she only made them worse when she threw Cameron into the mix. “Ma I’m doing everything in my power not to show her how I truly feel about her mom, I love Marcell to death but you know that out of everyone she put me and Bailey through the most. We’re all sisters! How come she couldn’t find the time to tell us about any of her problems! She decided to run off with that no good man and leave us all to pick up her pieces! It’s not fair and you know it!”
“Fair! She’s my daughter! I know what it feels like to be shut out you all did it to me! Don’t try and sit there and act like you wanted to help find her because if you had we would still have our PI!”
“Is this about money ma? You’re mad because I didn’t want to pay full for somebody to tell us something we already know? She will come back when she’s good and ready.”
“And what will you tell Cameron huh?”
“You let me worry about that because I’ve been handling it.”
