My Poems

I Need to Learn

I need to learn,

That if someone breaks me,

Kicks me when I'm down,

Makes me feel like I'm about to drown,

In an ocean of self hate,

If all they make me do is self deprecate,

That they are not worth it.

Do not let them think they are strong,

And that I am not,

Or that I don't belong.

Don't let them write your song,

You are the only one that can write your story,

Don't let it be gory.

No bruises, no cuts,

Don't spill your guts.

Not over this, over them.

Let them go.

Constant nagging,

The pain is overwhelming.

I haven't done it in a while,

So why am I unable to smile?

The darkness is spreading,

It's what I've been dreading.

I need to learn to let it go.

I need to learn to love myself,

Every inch, every part.

I need to stitch together my heart.

It echoes though my brain:

"Let it go, let it go"

Don't you think I already know?

I'm trying to give up on them,

Trying to forget what I thought I knew.

It's not helping.

I can't fix this,

I'm not learning anything,

I'm not getting better.

Nothing is changing.

It should be getting better.

It's not,

It's not,

It's not,

It's not,

It's not.

I need to learn how to be normal again,

I need to learn how to be me again,

But first I need to forget,

And I can't seem to.

So I guess I'll be stuck here forever.