From Cuddling To Dating [Sequel to Cuddle Buddy]

15

Niklaus's POV

What the bloody hell was that? That dream was so weird...

I know I need someone to help me with this so I texted the psychologist who Dr. Field gave it to me after I stopped being cuddle buddy with Caroline.

Thankfully, he had a free hour in about 30 minutes so I quickly took a shower, got dressed and ate an energy bar, then drove to his office.

I got there in time and had to wait a few minutes for him to be ready to see me, then when I got there I told him everything that happened in my dream.

"What do you think it meant? Or am I reading too much into this?"

"No. It's good that you came to me about this. Dreams can be just about many things that happened during the day and it's our brain that replays them and the feelings we had in that day can also play part of our dreams but in your case I believe it's not only that. I believe you are suffering a dilemma."

"No. I picked Caroline. I told you the story and how it all happened... I like Caroline. Jane is a friend."

"Yes but you also had an history with her and you two weren't just physical like you were used to, you told me that even if at first was just about intercourse, you ended up by talking with her and enjoying spending time with her."

"As a friend!" I said irritated.

"Maybe..." He said as he wrote something down.

"What are you writing down?"

"Does not matter. No need to concern about that."

"It does matter or else you wouldn't be writing." I argued.

"Look, Mr. Mikaelson... Your Dream night not be about picking one of them but yes what they meant."

"What?"

"You told me that your last serious relationship ended badly and that from that moment you choose to have relationships without attachments but now you decided to commit to Caroline. This dream you had was probably not about the girl you pick but the lifestyle you pick. By picking Caroline, you picked changing your lifestyle and be in a serious relationship where you are exposed to feelings such as love and hurt but by picking Jane you pick going back to the lifestyle you used to have where you did not committed to someone and didn't had to deal with the vulnerable stuff that comes with being in a serious relationship, by picking Jane you would pick going back to have intercourse with women and having Jane as your safety net where you could talk and had sex, knowing she wouldn't ask you for more. You need to figure out which path you want to take. If you try to repress this, it will come back to you and will make the three of you get truly hurt."

"But why? If I picked Caroline why am I dreaming now about this?"

"Probably because just now your unconscious is realizing what is happening and wondering if it's what you truly want." He said. "And that's all the time we have for now."

"Alright. Thank you..." I said and left his office.

***

I spend awhile in my studio painting and I ended up painting a man that was deciding which path to take.

Nothing is able to keep my head of that bloody dream and that horrible talk.

The man is a doctor and wasn't able to help me at all. Maybe I shouldn't even ask the meaning of the dream... Maybe I should've stayed in ignorance.

I went back to my apartment and saw Caroline in there cooking something.

"Caroline?"

"Hey! I'm sorry getting in without telling you. I wanted to make you a surprise..." she said and I looked at her with a small smile.

How could I act normal when last night I had that dream that apparently means that I am wondering if I'm ready to a serious relationship. Should I even tell her? I mean, what if it only hurts her? I don't want to hurt her... But I also don't want to lie to her...

"What happened? You seem off..."

"I'm just surprised with your lunch. Why did you do all this?"

"Well, I've been feeling insecure and you didn't let that get in the way of our relationship. And I also wanted to spoil you a little bit." She said with her bright smile.

"Maybe I don't deserve to be spoiled." I said and her smile quickly vanished.

"What do you mean?"

"I... I'm sorry."

"For what?" She asked worried.

"I had this dream and... I'm so sorry."

"What?"

"I had a dream of me waking up in bed with you and Jane and you two were asking me to pick one of you and I said that I had already picked you and that I wanted you but they kept asking and then when I woke up I decided to call my... psychologist... he told me that was my unconscious wondering if this was what I want... But I want you, I want to be with you..."

"Do you wonder what would be like picking Jane over me?"

"No. I never wonder that..." I said. "He told me it was me who was not used to a commitment and that is probably just my unconscious trying to see if I made the right choice. Which I know I did. I really like you Caroline. Please forgive me."

"It was a dream... I can't be angry for you having a certain dream. I just... You got me off guard. But... are you sure you want this? Because I don't want you to be with me just because you feel bad for me or something. I don't want this relationship to be forced on you." She said and I kissed her.

"I am with you because I want to." I told her and she kissed me again then we started to put the plates in the table and serve the lunch she made for us.