aNdyaN ka NAnaman baT DI KO MAIWASAN
tUMINGIN SA YON G LIWANAG
joke
its 2 am
and u h
its july uh 5 i think
ok 6 rather in my country and my school starts at august and
i dont fucking know if im happy abt it bc i did absolutely nothing but stayed at home fucking dying to a crisp for the whole 5 fucking months of my oh so called summer while everyone fucking did something aND YES IM BITTER ABT IT BC WHY DOES MY SISTER GET TO LEAVE ANYTIME SHE WANTS EVEN IF OUR FAMILYS LITERALLY DYING FINANCIALLY LIKE ????????????? wHat tHe actUal fUck !
like d whole family knows were financially unstable and there she goes wanting to leave and suddenly theyre all like ok go here take the money but when its me theyre just like ,, haha lol u tot bitch we have no money in general so why would we have money for u nd im jus like o k cool but when it comes to her we have all d money in d fucking world ! but guess what ! it feels insanely unfair not even bc i didnt get to go anywhere but bc its literally like this in every situation ! aNYWAY THATS NOT EVEN WHY IM HERE CJSMCKD AGH
LIKE IDK IF IM JUS HAPPY I FINALLYGET TO MOVE TO A DIFFERENT PLACE FOR COLLEGE (but they still do pay the rent so i thank everyone for it) but the place and stuff im getting r literally jus left overs from my sisters stay so i literally dont get anything new in and she might even get the TV so guess whos tv-less and yes i do have to watch tv for news bc my course basically calls for news.
so sum1 jus tell me shud i be happy my summers almost over or sad bc my college life is starting like i know its supposed to be exciting but its not even a course that ///i/// want at all???? i wanted to be a game developer but suddenly im fucking stuck in political science and this course has no where to fucking go but to law school and become a lawyer like ok listen up i rlly do wanna get famous lIKE IM LITERALLY SO PASSIONATE ABT BEING ON TV AND MAKING BANK AND ALL BUT MY PARENTS JUST DONT SEE THAT I RLLY WANT THAT ? like ok i know there are insane struggles that come with it and i see a lot and many idols open up abt it but idk i rlly want? that? is it bad? like i was emailed for this ent to come audition but my parents didnt want bc they said i was talentless and wouldnt get anywhere ,, so basically thanks for d support i u h guess
tBH IDEK WHERE IM GETTING MY EMO ASS FROM RN ITS FUCKING 2:20 IN THE MORNING so yeah tbh idek what my issue is rn i just have so much pent up anger and sadness and i guess i dont know where to channel it but here i guess ,, so u h
yall can jus skip this and jus yea ill die whenever .
i just rlly do hope id get to have money after law school someday and idk maybe get into arts school and pursue what i really want.
like idk maybe i should start a youtube channel nd maybe idk if it gets good maybe i can support myself as well so u h yea whatever sorry
oh im also mad abt how i didnt even go anywhere and they wont even let me go to my friends house like u h bitch i cant evengo to someones house now ?? what am i a fucking prisoner im turning 18 ffs why cant u let me do things independently !!!1!1!1!1
