Josh Dun x Reader

Old Feelings

Warnings: Mentions of cheating & sex, some swearing 

Word Count: 1653

Five Years Earlier...

You knocked on Josh's door, your hands still trembling from the adrenaline. It had taken you close to half an hour to stop sobbing, and even now your eyes would occasionally tear up as your boyfriend's–well, ex boyfriend's–words rang through your head. For the time being, you had to be around someone you trusted to distract you.

Josh opened the door a few minutes after you knocked. He was wearing a backwards hat over his curly brown hair, and in his hand was a bag of chips. His eyes furrowed when he saw you, you hadn't exactly given him any kind of warning that you were going to be showing up at his front door.

"What are you doing over here?" Josh asked, throwing another chip into his mouth. "Aren't you supposed to be out with Y/E/N today?"

"About that..." you trailed off.

Josh opened the door wider and stepped off to the side, wordlessly inviting you in. The two of you walked upstairs and into his bedroom. You took off your coat and threw it over the back of his desk chair before flopping down on his bed. Josh took a seat in his desk chair and began to spin around.

"So what did he do this time?"

"He ended things because I told him I wasn't going to have sex with him. I should have known something was up when he said we should drive separately to the park."

"Wait, he broke up with you because you didn't want to have sex with him?" Josh asked, a dumbfounded look on his face.

You rolled your eyes and tried to ignore the knot in your stomach that had just tied itself a little tighter, "Yeah, it was dumb."

You bit your lip and looked down at Josh's carpet, trying to mask the tears that were already pooling in your eyes. He had never liked your boyfriends, so you hated to cry about them in front of him.

"It is dumb," Josh said. "But I get the feeling that you don't think it is."

You shrugged, "I mean, that's what you do in relationships, right? You have sex."

"I mean, yeah, I guess that's a part of a relationship in some cases. What's dumb about it is that he broke up with you about it. You were dating for, like, two months."

"Three," you corrected him quietly.

"Ok, three, but regardless of how long you're dating, he should respect your decision to have or not to have sex. It was an asshole move to break up with you over something like that."

"Here we go again," you groaned, rolling over onto your back.

"Here we go with what?"

"All of this." You waved your arms in his general direction. "I break up with a guy and instead of being comforting you just go off about how mean the guy was and how you never liked him in the first place. Can't you just be my supportive best friend for once?"

"I'm sorry, I didn't realize that wanting you to be treated right wasn't supportive of me," Josh retorted sarcastically.

"That's the thing!" you said, rolling back over so that you could face Josh better. "You say you want me to be treated right, but no matter who I date or how happy I am or how nice he is you find something to nitpick about him."

"You just haven't found a good guy yet! Every guy you date is one step above the last on the asshole ladder."

"Well then who am I supposed to date? Because you obviously have someone in mind."