Josh Dun x Reader

Confession

Warnings: Angst

Word Count: 2270

"This is it," you told yourself. "You're going to tell Josh how you feel and things are going to be different. Maybe good, maybe bad, but they're going to be different."

You took a moment to look at all the pictures of you and the boys that you had hanging around your mirror. They had walked into your life nearly five years ago, and things had been better because of it ever since then. Of course, it hadn't taken long before you fell for one of them. Those kinds of things just had the tendency to happen when you had two extremely amazing and attractive best friends.

Confidence surging through you, a rare feeling, you headed out to your car. You knew that this was something that you needed to do in person, things were too easily lost in translation over the phone. Not to mention that it gave you an opportunity to admire Josh in person, possibly for the last time. If things went bad, you weren't sure what was going to happen between the three of you. But after some guidance from Tyler, the two of you had determined that this was a necessary risk.

Josh's car wasn't in the driveway when you arrived at his house, but you decided to try the door anyway. Sure enough, there was no answer. Not wanting to make the twenty minute drive back home if he was going to be back soon, you decided to shoot him a text to see how long he would be.

Stopped by your house because I need to talk about something serious with you. Home soon?

You decided that it would be best to wait in the car where it was warm rather than his doorstep where you felt like your fingers were going to fall off if they were out of your pockets for too long. Your phone buzzed almost as soon as you shut the car door behind you.

Needed to pick up some groceries. Home in ten. Everything cool?

You smiled at the text, even though it didn't have any significant meaning. Maybe it was just the fact that he cared.

Everything's cool.

You decided to check up on Twitter and see if you had missed anything important while you waited. Your timeline was more flooded than usual with tweets from the clique, meaning that something major had happened. The boys hadn't mentioned anything huge lately, so you decided to do some investigating.

All of the tweets seemed to lead to the same ultimate conclusion: lots of evidence was pointing to the fact that Josh and Debby were back together, or at least a lot more comfortable than they had been previously. Photos of a party that the boys had gone to about a week ago had just been released, and it didn't take any reaching to see the chemistry between the two of them. You vaguely remembered Josh and Tyler asking if you wanted to accompany them, but you had passed because you had never been a fan of the party scene. Now you were wishing more than anything that you had gone.

You tried to swallow the lump in your throat as you scrolled through more tweets. Surely Josh would have mentioned that he and Debby were back together, right? Or maybe this was all just the beginning of their relationship rekindling and he didn't want to jinx it. Whatever it was, you knew that you couldn't tell him how you felt now. You wondered how you had even thought that was a good idea in the first place.

You threw your phone down on the passenger seat and pushed your palms into your eyes as a futile attempt to get them to stop watering. If anything, that made your vision worse. With an exasperated sigh, you turned the car on and decided that you would have to drive home crying, not that it would be the first time. The longer you waited in Josh's driveway, the higher the chance that you ran into him and had to explain why you were sitting in your car crying.