Desolation Boy 2

Once in a while my eyes explode

Listen world. I don't know what I did.

I don't know what I did to deserve nothing beautiful from you.

I don't mean the earth below my feet

I mean the world in front of me

People make me want to rip myself apart

My disorders are caving in on me

And my soul is shaking

My cheeks show streams of tears

Each one holding a suppressed emotion

YOU DON'T UND

ERSTAND

Read it carefully..

I never cry anymore

My emotions constantly crash around like never ending waves

I am in my head getting drowned

These waves throw me around

And the salt is burning my soul

My heart is gone

You know this though because

I've told you that my heartbeat isn't proof of it's existence

But has anything changed ?

No.

The world won't stop throwing me back to the deep end

It won't let me past

I have three people who I hold close

But the world stops me from seeing them

We're all too busy

So I face the sky every night

I smoke a little

Let myself float off

I look at my life and try to solve it all

All alone

I haven't wanted the world anymore

No one other than you three

I'm so nauseous from these waves

I need more

I need touch

But I am not enough for the world

Too flawed

I'm a human error

I'm a human error

But I need to keep moving

Whether I like it or not.

Whether it tears me apart or gives me peace

Because the world never stops

I'm not allowed to pause life

I have to keep going

I never rest

I need rest

Just

Let me rest..
..

... but I want to rest in someone's arms

I need safety

I can't go on by myself

I'll just live on the stars until then

The waves in my head will continue to fill me up with emotion

I'll suppress it

Until my cheeks

Are salty streams once again

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I need to feel someone in order to be alive

I need someone in order to survive...