I Want to Imagine...

Ignore

At first it killed me to ignore you

but now its becoming easier everyday

every minute

every hour 

every week 

every month

just gets easier

But it kills me to see your picture.

you and me

smiling

holding hearts

looking into each others eyes

mine filled with pure cautious love

while yous lingers.

Your embrace so

warm

so comfy

so protective 

but over time  it felt 

cold

and simply just 

not the same

We used to sit together

smile

laugh 

and hold each silly thing as

a beautiful moment

Now you gone far away

literally.

We don't talk

and we don't even care about each other

well that's the most I can say about you

I still care

just not enough to trust you

with all my heart, again. 

Every time I see your face 

anywhere, 

I want to run into your arms 

and hug you till I'm out of breath.

But, at the same time

I want to rip 

your heart out

slap you 

and just walk away. 

Things are just to complicated

yet so simple between us. 

If it was up to life or death between us

I would prefer for me to live

while you die on the inside

for all the failers you committed against me.

Thinking of your memories don't help

heal my broken and

angered heart

but rather gives me an excuse

to build up my walls again

stronger, sturdier and built with efficacy. 

Your just a memory from the pass

yet something that helped me 

achieve this future.

I would say I regret staying with you

but I wouldn't dream of saying that,

your just someone who I spent my precious

time, love and energy with. 

At first it killed me to ignore you

but now its becoming easier everyday

every minute

every hour 

every week 

every month

just gets easier 

So my dear if you ever 

get to read this

think of the pain you put my through

for a long time.

Forget my tough exterior

think of how hurt anyone would feel if 

someone just walked out on them with

no explanation

and gets themselves another in less than a day.

Must be easy living your life

pretending that you haven't hurt anyone

when they were the first to understand you

and you throw them away like garbage. 

Hope Karma gets your sorry ass and

throws you away the same way you did to me. 

Becuase I'll just be laying back, enjoying you fall

while I never laid a finger on you. 

And once I say something full of revenage

thats how you know You've messed up. 

Big Time....