I Want to Imagine...

I'm Done...

I just want to walk into

the burning, and skin boiling

sun and never return. 

I just want to walk

into the dark night, and be shadowed

with the moons reflection. 

I'm done.

Officially done. 

Of all the betrayal, of all the lies.

Of all the heart break and all of the tears.

They lead to nothing, 

nothing, but me wanting to leave. 

I put on a straight face, sure you may not see

this is killing me but it is. 

Tears that cover my face,

tears that swallow me within

love that is lost 

and lies that can't be hidden. 

I'm done.

Officially done. 

Of all the betrayal, of all the lies.

Of all the heart break and all of the tears.

I look at the world

and my pace just slows down.

Every mistake, 

I learn from but I just sob. 

I trust you, 

I put my all into our relationship

but you just keep burning holes through 

your world of chances,

the one that I have made for you. 

I feel betrayed, 

lied too. 

Abandoned 

and I finally will never be the same

AGAIN...

I'm done.

Officially done. 

Of all the betrayal, of all the lies.

Of all the heart break and all of the tears.

Friendship/Relationship

are words I will never look at 

the same way again. 

I try, 

I fail. 

I die, 

No one will care. 

I feel so done,

my heart is sobbing 

and I'm officially alone,

well I feel alone.

I'm done.

Officially done. 

Of all the betrayal, of all the lies.

Of all the heart break and all of the tears.

I try my best 

each day,

to find something to make me smile,

even laugh but there's always something  that makes me angry

and depressed all over again. 

I officially feel

like locking myself in a room

and never getting out. 

I try to hard, 

I fall to hard and

I just get hurt all the time. 

No more friends for me,

no more smiles for this girl 

and no more happy times, just memories. 

They fade, watching me collapse. 

I'm done.

Officially done. 

Of all the betrayal, of all the lies.

Of all the heart break and all of the tears.

I want to try to smile, laugh 

but now its too hard

tears, just tears are accompanying me. 

I'll try but I don't know 

if I have enough strength to find more hope.

My hope has been going down the drain all along. 

Taking my life with it. 

I'm tired, exhausted.