Black and Burns {TamTori} [COMPLETED]

~5~

Tori carefully tuck her cup of honey lemon tea from Tamara. Tori blew the centre of it a bit and tuck a tiny sip afterwards. Tori slowly disbanded her lips from the edge of the cup and sighed in relaxation. Tori looked up at Tamara, she was smiling, so Tori smiled back.

"thanks so much Tamara" Tori said

"no problem" Tamara responded

Tamara walked out of the room and decided to call Ell and Matilda over, they needed to know what happened. Tamara picked up the phone and rang them. Ell quickly picked up.

"hey Tam, everything ok?" Ell asked

"um... I need you and Matilda to come over right away" Tamara explained

"um... ok?" Ell then hung up

.*+ Little Time Skip +*.

Ell and Matilda sat on Tamara's couch. They were extremely confused. So Ell went to ask what happened, but she was cut off by Tamara.

"ok... remember when Tori passed out and had the black stuff coming out of her mouth and eyes?" Tamara asked

"yes?" The two others said in unison, confused

"well, it happened again this morning" Tamara tried not to sound like she cared

"what!? is she ok!?" Ell shouted

"yes, she's ok, but I don't know why it happens, because she was only making breakfast when suddenly she started mumbling stuff like, "go away" and "stop" and then she screamed "shut up" and fell backwards, when she hit the floor she started coughing and crying that black stuff" Tamara explained

"well... there's not much we can do but ask her what's wrong and hope she tells us" Ell sighed

"I guess your right..." Tamara paused

"...well... we should really get home now" Ell broke the silence

"...ok..." Tamara said quietly

Ell and Matilda quietly left. Tamara just looked at the floor. She was worried about Tori, but she obviously didn't want to show it. She didn't want to show she cared about someone who almost killed them and actually killed one of their neighbours!

Tamara grunted angrily at herself. She got up and stormed off to her room. She didn't know what was going on with herself. She didn't care about Tori. did she?

Tori got out of bed. She knows she's not aloud to, but she heard the girls talking, and Tamara slamming her door. She knew Tamara was angry. And she knew it was because of her. She had to tell Tamara what was going inside of her head. Right now, she trusted Tamara, but she wasn't going to tell Ell or Matilda.

Tori slowly knocked on Tamara's door. Tamara had her head on her pillow and she was crying into it. When she heard the knock, she knew who it was, so she quickly wiped her tears away and ran to the door.

Tamara opened the door to reveal a sad Tori. She was wearing everything she woke up in this morning. Tamara's face went completely red. When Tori noticed why, she was about to run back to her room to put more clothes on, but Tamara grabbed her arm before she could.

"I-its ok, don't worry about changing" Tamara managed to stutter out 

Tori just nodded her head and stepped into Tamara's room. Tamara shut the door behind her and sat back on her bed. Tori didn't know if it was ok to sit next to her, and Tamara could see that, so Tamara patted to a space next to her. Tori went and sat down next to her.

"so what do you want to talk about?" Tamara asked

"u-um... y-you cant tell Ell o-or Matilda... ok?" Tori stuttered

"ok" Tamara nodded

"s-so... I heard you all talking... and... it happens because... I have voices in my head... telling me that no one cares and everyone hates me and that they only forgave me because they felt sorry for me... and that I shouldn't have lived through my attempt..." Tori managed to say it all without crying

"what attempt?" Tamara asked

"d-did I say attempt!? n-no I meant... um!..." Tori tried looking for an excuse

Tamara grabbed Tori's hand and held it tight. Tori shot her head round to look at Tamara . Tamara just looked at her sadly, the tears visibly cornered in her eyes.

"Tori... you have to tell me everything" Tamara let a tear go

Tori gulped and nodded slowly. That was when Tori let all of her tears go, her face was like two rivers, the tears falling out dramatically fast.

"w-when I almost killed you all... and I got a new arm... and I went blind in my left eye and deaf in my left ear... and I had all my scars down my left side... I just kept looking at them all and thinking... how much of an idiot I was... and the voices told me lots of other horrible stuff about myself... but they were all true... so they told me that everyone would be happier without me... so I-I-I..." Tori couldn't say the ending before sobbing

Tamara pulled Tori into a hug. Tamara wouldn't let herself burst out in tears, not because she didn't want to show she cared, she didn't care if she showed that anymore, she just didn't want to make Tori even more sad then she already was.

"its ok... you don't have to say the rest" Tamara whispered

Tamara felt Tori slowly pull away from the hug. She wiped all of her tears away and held Tori's chin so that she'd stay faced to her.

"you have to stop listening to those voices, they're wrong, and you've changed, ok" Tamara said clearly

"o-ok" Tori sniffled

Tamara looked at Tori's tear-filled eyes. The sunlight shining on them, making them sparkle. Tamara's face lit a red again. Tori noticed, but so did her thoughts.

we talked about not getting stuck in these love games Tori

Tori then instantly pulled away and stud up. She didn't mean to, but it kind of scared Tamara, the sudden movement was fast and made her jump a bit. Tori gulped.

"s-sorry for scaring you, I-I just need to get some rest" She nervously laughed a bit

Tamara sighed and nodded. Tori walked out of the room and slowly closed the door behind her.

When Tori left, Tamara flopped back onto her bed and screamed into her pillow. She shouted at herself, but she made sure to only do so when her head was on the pillow, she made sure not to shout anything when she came back up for air, so that Tori wouldn't get suspicious. But little did Tamara know, Tori was sat right outside Tamara's door listening to her, which means she could just about hear what Tamara was screaming into her pillow.

"I'm such a stupid fuck! why would she want you!? you should hate her as well! I'm such a dumb cunt! what's wrong with me!? I'm not supposed to care so much about her! so why do I!?" Then Tamara continued to actually scream into her pillow

Tori started to cry more. She didn't know that Tamara actually cared, let alone have a crush on her. Tori didn't mean to upset Tamara, because truth be told, she likes Tamara too. The only reason Tori was a dick to Tamara back then was because Tori didn't want Tamara to know she liked her. So she acted like a stupid tsundere. But now Tori was different, she would tell Tamara the truth, but the voices were right about one thing. Tori has been played in little love games before, but that doesn't mean that didn't hurt her. So in a way, the voices are kind of trying to protect Tori from getting her heart broken again.

But then Tori thought...

'Tamara wouldn't do that... right?'

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