Hey y'all sorry for not updating for so long I've been so busy with school however it's getting out this Friday so I should be able to update more frequently!
Two drinks, five boxes of candy, a large popcorn and a sick feeling in the young redheads stomach, the pair walked down the sidewalk, passing a couple of bars and many more apartments lining the sides of the streets a couple of hours laters. There was a light breeze however it was warm, probably one the nicest nights in Manhattan this time of the year so far.
"Should we catch a cab or do you wanna walk the rest of the way Buck?" Freya asked Bucky looking to her left to meet his grey eyes.
"It's calm out here. I don't think I've ever seen it this quiet before."
The ginger turned her head to look at him before looking forward and replying.
"Well I mean you have been cooping yourself up for a pretty long time, I think the only time I've ever been able to drag you out was a good amount of three times."
Bucky snorted softly and shook his head looking at her dramatically outstretched arms. They continued to walk side by side for the next ten minutes before Freya came out of her sort of whimsical calm state by jumping up and grabbing his metal hand with an excited 'hey'
This action startling Bucky the slightest getting him sort of in a defensive mode; his shoulders becoming tense.
"Shit sorry my bad! Hey but, hey there is this great fantastic place I wanna show you, we need to get some stuff first though!" The redhead exclaimed while smiling widely.
"What kinda stuff do you have in mind?" Bucky asked cocking his eyebrow up a little bit.
"Um snacks, a blanket or two and some drinks obviously!" She exclaimed happily
Bucky opened his mouth with a confused look on his face but then closed it deciding to go with whatever she had planned. Grabbing his hand and dragging him to Walgreens with a bright look on her face. Bucky smiled softly all her excitement, smiling a little bit big when he noticed that her small, fragile hand was still laced within his metal hand.
-Timeskip-
"Here just sit down and gimme that dr.pepper can please!" Freya said loudly, reaching over Bucky to grab the Dr.pepper herself. She settled down with the drink, crossing her legs as she sat down, Bucky mirroring her a second later.
"So what are we uh doing up here?" The brunette asked.
"Sorry for the whole clicheness of it, it's just, you know what just look up." The girl said looking to him. Bucky agreed without saying anything, and looked up to the sky.
"It's beautiful isn't it, the stars that is." Freya mumbled this in a soft voice, a voice Bucky had never really heard until now. She kept herself high and had a strong opinion and voice however, she seemed different, softer, more herself, more relaxed; in love with the world and he things around her. She seemed to be appreciating everything in this moment.
"I remember some stuff, like I used to do this I think with someone. Some scrawny blonde kid and I would just sit on top of our apartment and watch the stars. For hours I guess we would do this." Bucky said speaking quite clearly. Freya turned her head to look at him furrowing her eyebrows.
"Wait you remember something?" She questioned
"Yeah, yeah I do actually."
"Tell me about it, if you feel comfortable that is I don't wanna pressure you into it or anything, sorry you don't have to if you don't want!" Freya started rambling feeling bad immediately for asking.
Bucky only laughed and smiled at this. "No it's ok your not pressuring me into anything doll."
"Hm doll, you used to call all the ladies that back in the day?" The ginger challenged jokingly with a grin.
"Oh yah I'm sure I had all the ladies wrapped around my finger, back in the day." Bucky retaliated playfully with a smile leaning back on his metal arm to prop himself up, uncrossing his legs and laying them out straight in the process. His head lopped to the side looking her in the eyes with a smug grin.
"Hm, just seems like you only have one lady wrapped around your finger nowadays, now doesn't it?"
"Seems like it I guess."
The two looked at each other with large smiles present on their faces, her eyes shining with ecstasy and happiness. Bucky quickly looked away and turned his head back to the sky beginning to speak while looking at the stars.
"Freya, why did take me in? I mean I broke into your damn apartment and stole stuff from you, why take in some broken man?" Bucky continued not looking her way but, stopped looking at the sky.
The ginger immediately felt pity for him, he had been through hell and back and was still one of the kindest men she's ever met but, yeah why would she take him in I mean he did break into her apartment and he was an ex-assassin for Christ's sake.
"How couldn't I James, you didn't harm me in any way possible, hell you didn't even steal anything of value, you borrowed supplies cause you were hurt and trying to get away from those monsters and what they were trying to turn you into."
"But, I am a monster god Freya I've murdered and harmed so many people how could you take in such a monster!" The brunette exclaimed his body now more alert and tense.
Freya watched him with sad eyes before replying. "That wasn't you James, I know you, the real you. You could never doing that to a person."
"But, I did do all that, it was me why can't you understand that?"
"Buck would you want to torture someone, now?" She asked calmly
"No, of course not..."
"See, you're not a monster and that thing they made you, it wasn't you, so I'm sorry if you can't comprehend the fact that you aren't a bad person James but, it's true you aren't and you will never be so get it through your thick head that you're good and some people are able to see the good beyond the first layer." Freya finished with a small huff sitting back up straighter. Neither of them said anything for the next two hours they just layer under the stars trying to forget the things they've seen.
Hey hope everyone's nights or days are going good I'll try and update tomorrow or Friday, love y'all:)
Ты не монстр=you're no monster
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BuckyBarnes//Purity
Fanfictioni wrote this when i was like 12 and i want to delete it so god damn badly but it makes me laugh whenever i randomly go back and read some it cause it's so fucking stupid and cringy😭😭
