In The Name Of Gun, Die

To lose you

Cat pov

A lot of ambulance came here. Firetruck, police name it. Tulong tulong sila para iligtas ang mag pasaherong nasa loob ng eroplano. Parang pitik lang ang nangyaring pagsabog kanina. Kitang kita ko ang pagliyab ng eroplano. Dumalo ako para tiyakin kung nakuha na nila si Alec, he can survive this! Alam ko!

Pero sadyang malupit maglaro ang tadhana. I saw him laying in a stretcher. I saw a lot of blood. He's all mighty face became crimson in blood. Marami itong gasgas sa katawan. Nilapitan ko ito pero pinigilan ako ng nurse

"Maam, hindi mo pwedeng hawakan. You can cause more injuries"

Magalang siya pero nainis ako sa sinabi niya. How dare she. Gusto ko lang tulungan si Alec!

"Sweet, we'll just wait in the hospital. Let's go"

Nagpahila na lang ako. I cant think properly. Masaya lang kami kanina and then, look now? Alec is fighting between life and death. Bakit ba nangyayari sa akin to?

Agad kong nakita ang katawan ni Alec na pinapapasok sa operating room

"Do everything please! Save him. Dahil kapag hindi  ay tatanggalan kita ng lisensya bilang doctor!"

Sigaw ko sa doctor bago ito pumasok. I dont care if i sound too rude. Nahahapong napaupo ako sa sahig at unti unti tumulo ang luha ko. Hindi ko alam kung ilang oras akong umiyak habang inaalo ako ni Rix at Lolo. Tahimik kaming naghintay, ng magpasya akong pumunta sa chapel

"Why? I know im not the nicest person people can meet. But why? Bakit mo nagawa iyon? Why Alec? Why Aunt Fhe? They did nothing but to love and care about me. Bakit kailangan mo silang saktan ng ganoon? It should've been me. Ako na lang sana! Ako na lang"

Its bad to question him why. But i cant help it. He just broke my heart again. Mas matindi ito kaysa sa nawala si Mama sa harap ko. Mahal ko si mama, pero mas minahal ko sila dahil may pamilya pa pala ako na kadugo ni mama.

"Just please. I know i've done so many things, bad things. Imoral. But could you please. Please. Wag mo naman sila kunin. I cant. Im not ready. Not now"

Ng bumalik ako ay nakita kong pasok labas ang doctor at nurse sa loob ng OR. What happen?

"Anong nagyayari?"

Walang sumagot sa akin. Kaya inulit ko at nilakasan ang pagtatanong

"He had a cardiac arrest while the doctors trying to remove a plate of metal in his heart" Rix said still not looking at me

"Useless doctors! Ang dapat nilang gawin ay iligtas ni Alec hindi patayin!"

Pinatigil ako si Rix sa kasisigaw at niyakap. Pero itinulak ko ito

"Stop it! Just looked! Alec is in that shitty room fighting for life and you're saying i just calm down? I cant---"

Natigil ako ng sampalin ako ni Lilac, i looked at her. Umiiyak din ito

"Queen please. We all know that. But all we can do is to pray. Pray hard that your cousin will survive. He will. Malakas siya tulad mo right? Queen, please"

Her words struck me. Of course Alec will survive this. He's Alec Consunji after all. He can even beat storm and sealed a high project with business. He will survive this

Umupo ako sa bench at pumikit para ipagdasal si Alec. Naramdaman ko namang tumabi si Lolo sa akin. Niyakap ko siya para kumuha ng lakas sa lahat ng nangyayari

"I already send Loir and Leir to get your Aunt there. Mas mabuti ng makuha natin siya para masigurong ligtas ang  Antie mo, apo"

"Thank you Lolo" I felt a little relieved to what my Lolo said.