Blood Bound

Chapter 26

Luna...

I knew I had hurt the people that were around me but, I didn't know how selfish I was being. I didn't realize that as I sat on that bed room floor I was ten minutes away from dying,I didn't realize that I had reached my limit. I mean, the highness that I felt,the calm that I felt....it felt so good. I was disappointed in myself because I wasn't that weak, but every tough soul has a weak spot. Never in a million years would I've ever think about killing myself, up until last night. I felt like everything was just crumbling down on me and I was letting everybody down.

My whole life I've been fighting ,and fighting,and fighting that I haven't really been able to cope with these demons. Not having no parents around,being raped, being in jail for six years,losing my brother, killing somebody. I've never been able to speak about those things because I feel like motherfuckers can't relate to me. I know everybody thinks I'm this strong and tough individual, but that's only on the outside. On the inside, I'm just this lost soul.

"Hey Mama, how you feelin?" Meecho said as he walked over to the side of the bed giving me a kiss on the cheek.

"I don't know." I mumbled and frowned before looking at him, "I'm sorry I put you through that."

He sighed before frowning and gently grabbing my hand, "You ain't gotta apologize baby,it's aight. All that matters is that you're here now."

"You saved my life Meech. I don't know how I could repay you ,but I promise I will." He groaned and shook his head.

"You don't need to repay me Lu." He stated before gently sitting in the spot next to me,before I rested my head on his stomach. "Don't you ever think that what I'm doin' for you is a favor aight?,it's not...I would never in my life ask you to repay me for anything, you hear?"

I nodded my head weakly, letting him run his fingers through my hair,That's one of things that made me feel better.

"Where's Cj? Is he still here?" I asked,while my eyes focused on the tv.

"Nah they just released him,he's going to my house."

"Who took him?"

"Tristian, one of my workers."

"Oh okay." I nodded "do you trust letting that Tristian kid know where you live?"

"Yea" He said in between chuckles, "he saved my life that day Julius came to the warehouse."

Once he said Julius name,for some reason Mel and Tyler popped up in my head. "You didn't tell Tyler or Mel what happened right?" I sat up from laying on his stomach.

He sighed, "I did."

"Why'd you do that?" My eyes widened a little, I didn't want them to know about this at all. I know how over protective they can be.

"Can't hide no shit like that from them Lu."

I sighed, "you know how they are Meecho ,they're gonna be on me like white on rice. Did they come here?"

"Yea when you were brought in,You scared them half to death honestly."

I took a deep breath before running my fingers through my hair ,making a mental note to call them.

Cutting our conversation short , a lady that looked as if she was in her early fifty's walked in the room ..but she didn't have on a doctors jacket or nurses outfit,which made me curious.

"Must be your therapist." Meech mumbled next to me ,before getting up to greet her before sitting down in the seat next to my bed.

One thing I wasn't gonna do,was speak to no therapist who was only gonna' judge me. I never needed no therapist, and I don't need one now.