obsessed | e.d

eighteen

|ethan dolan's pov|
*remedy, adele*

i think it's the right time to talk to grayson, i miss him.

the thing is; i don't know if he wants to talk to me.

he is my twin brother, my half, and i ruined everything that was between us because of alenne.

i don't want to think that this is her fault, but it is.

why do i keep doing this to myself?

but now it's time to be brave.

i have to talk to grayson, if i don't i will regret this forever.

i take my phone and look for alenne's contact.

me:
ale i finally found the courage to talk to grayson :)

alenne ♡:
i'm so happy for you!! when are you going to meet him?

me:
i still haven't called him or texted him

alenne ♡:
go text him!

me:
sure :)

alenne ♡:
im so happy omg

me:
ale you're the reason i'm doing this, if it weren't for you things would've been the same. you are my remedy, you are what makes me happy.

alenne ♡:
aw bby

me:
where are you? i miss you

alenne ♡:
i'm at home but my mom and my sister are home :((

me:
oh ok, i'll call grayson.

alenne ♡:
good luck :)

it's time, i'm talking with grayson.

i click on the contact "grayson" and tap on the call button.

one ring, two rings, three rings.

"hello?" it's been a long time since i haven't heard my brother's voice but it didn't change it's still a little deep and low pinched.

"gray, it's me" these three words are followed my an awkward, weird and uncomfortable silence.

"oh" he took pause "hi"

"how are you?" i asked gently.

"uhm good, what about you?" it didn't look like he actually cared.

"actually really good, i've never been better." i say proudly.

"oh" he seemed surprised.

"i wanted to ask you if you wanted to meet." as soon as i said that i felt a bit of regret inside of me.

"yeah sure. when?"

he actually wants to meet me, i really wasn't expecting that, at all.

"tomorrow at carlo's? is that okay for you?"

"perfect, see you there then." i imagined him smiling.

"ok, bye"

"bye"

that was easier than i thought.

i thought he was going to say no, but he actually agreed.

i've never been so happy, ever.
and alenne is the only reason i'm feeling this way.

i don't know what would i be without her, i need her in my life.

she is my remedy.

she saved me.

i miss her.

i miss her kisses, her touch, i just miss being around her.

i'm now laying on my bed thinking of how fast my life changed.

when people will ask me "have you ever met someone that changed your life?", i'll have my answer. alenne.

i still don't get how can she be in love with me after what i told her at kevin's party.

all of this is surreal.