December 03, 2017 | 10:54 PM
Dear Diary,
Losing someone is something that I am completely familiar with. Sanay na sanay na ako.
Alam mo naman diary na it was during high school when I lost my mom. Grabe yung sakit 'non. Sobrang sakit. I cried for weeks.
Tapos ngayong college, I lost Allen and Maya. My boyfriend and my bestfriend. Alam ko the pain is not the same when I lost my mom pero masakit pa rin. I also cried for weeks.
It was that time when I met France. Unbelievable 'no? He's a complete stranger. Nagsimula kami nang hindi ko alam kung sino ba talaga siya, kung ano ang itsura niya. Pero kahit ganon, siya ang dahilan kung bakit ako nakamove-on. Kung bakit ako sumaya ulit. He taught me how to give second chances.
Ngayon, feeling ko I'm going to lose him too. Pero yung sakit na nararamdaman ko ngayon ay di tulad ng sakit na naramdaman ko nung namatay si Mama. Di rin tulad ng sakit na naramdaman ko nung naghiwalay kami ni Allen o nung nalaman ko na inagawan ako ni Maya.
Ibang klase yung sakit. Sakit na may kasamang pagsisisi. May kasamang 'what ifs'. May kasamang 'sana pala'.
Maybe I am hurting right now not because I am losing him but because he was never really mine at all.
Pero naalala ko, sabi ni France, there's more to life than love. Kaya ngayong I have more time for myself, I won't spend it being sad everyday. I'm going to rediscover myself. Find out what I really want. What makes me happy. Spend time with my friends. Have time for my Dad.
I know he said he'll be back. I know he promised. Pero sa totoo lang, no one is really certain at all. Ang daming pwedeng mangyari.
But the one thing that I am so sure of is that no matter what happens, France will always, ALWAYS, have a special place in my heart.
Love,
Monalisa Rose
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